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Breakfast Tomorrow

I’m going to Creation with my family tomorrow. I’m going to have to live with them in a camper for 4 days, and eat every meal together, plus snacks and desert. How am I supposed to lose weight if they are watching my every bite? :p



To the anon, who asked for a pic………

107 pounds :)

The treadmill we have is so old. None of the buttons/counters work anymore and the belt keeps sliding to the side.

I’m too broke/cheap to get a membership though :| Wish I just had an elliptical in my basement :p

1 yogurt diet: 63kcal

1 espresso without sugar: 2kcal

Total: 65kcal

What I just shared has put me in such a bad mood. I am going to try and eat nothing for the rest of...

So here’s a picture of my woman for motivation.

Can’t let myself get discouraged if the scale starts doing its crazy fluctuating thing all over again. I have to get into the gym today, but I have a call-in for work and wanted to only go if I knew for a fact that I didn’t have to go in for work, because I don’t have time if I go workout now and then have to go to work. I’m feeling blaaahh. I was all excited because the scale said 145.1 a couple of days ago, but it decided to say 145.5 yesterday and then 146.5 today. It’s this fluctuation that I can’t let get to me. I have to stop myself from climbing on top of the scale every day, make sure I’m eating right and drinking more water, and tell myself that if I’m doing the best I can, then I’ll get to where I want to be. Grr. It’s hard to be positive.

Everyone’s beautiful. 
But if you take a photo of a person and aspire to look like them at some point in your weight loss journey, there is a high chance of you being disappointed.

Your body’s unique.
Of course, there are body types, and generalizations, but there is no way you can look at someone else’s body and expect to look like that at that weight.
Reasons: 

  • Muscle tone
  • Body fat percentage
  • Bone structure
  • Random genetics ( I have a huge ass, all the women in my family do )
  • … and tons of others. 

That’s one of the things that I think is so rewarding about this weight loss journey. 
You’re basically freeing yourself, recreating yourself, defining yourself :)

And no amount of thinspiration can tell you how the outcome will be :) 
Your body is so different, so special, so unique :)  

What I just shared has put me in such a bad mood. I am going to try and eat nothing for the rest of the day… FUCK THEM! He will be my inspiration to look amazing and shove it in his face…

I'm not even posting my intake today

I am going to do skinny girl diet. It’s pretty much the end of the day and I don’t want to wait till next Monday so I will just work off the extra 60 calories I ate today, so then everything can get on track. Has anyone had any experiences with SGD?

guys, c'mon. i'm wired on energy. like caffeine overdose!

So I finally did it. I worked out a little. I started Jillian Micheals Fat Burn DVD and my EasyCurves. The Fat DVD I only did warm up/cool down and 2 circuits but everything added up to 30 mins so I am thinking I’ll work my way up to all 7 circuits.

B-Special K

L-3chicken selects and a yogurt

D-left over mashed potatoes zucchini shredded chicken and a bite of  Stromboli (it sounds like a lot but it was a tiny amount of everything)

S-none

E-EasyCurves A and 2Jillian circuits

Even my glasses are sweating.



Ew, I’ve eaten so much today and I’m not going to get to go to the gym tonight. It’s also waffle night with my friends, urghgjhgkjeht! I hate this so much, why can I be so lucky where I can eat whatever I like and not gain 20 kilos :’(!

Don’t mind me I’m just whinging because it’s shark week and I’m bloated and yuck and just craving chocolate and ice cream really badly.

One question before I finally go to bed:

In Vegas for the half marathon it will be around 50 degrees and the race is December 4th. However, I have no idea what I should be wearing so I need some help. Like a type of special shirt? Shorts? Should I wear like spandex under my shorts? A long sleeved and then short sleeved shirt together?

So I guess, what should I be looking for to wear in 50 degree weather at the beginning of December, running in the evening 13.1 miles in Vegas?

Intake:
09:45 - Sun dried cherry tomatoes in oil [58]

Total: 58


Exercise: 

Total:


Net intake:  

why can’t you buy my fucking clothes already?

I’ve lost 4 jeans sizes. which means NONE of my clothes fit.

which means I have to buy NEW ONES, WHICH I CAN’T AFFORD

because you won’t buy my old shit

fuck you.

As you probably have surmised, it was terrible. No fucking painted nails for me (nail polish challenge). Tomorrow I will do this!

The thing is I’m always like: “Oh it won’t matter.” Well you know what, inner me, it fucking will. When you’re obese and trying to lose more weight than ever you’ll regret this forever.

Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?



SOMEDAY! 

The equations for your base metabolic rate:

English BMR Formula:
Women: 655 + (4.35 X Weight in lbs) + (4.7 X Height in inches) - (4.7 X age)
Men: 66 + (6.23 X Weight in lbs) + 12.7 X Height in inches) - (6.8 X age)

Metric BMR Formula:
Women: 655 + (9.6 X Weight in kg) + (1.8 X Height in cm) - (4.7 X age)
Men: 66 + (13.7 X Weight in kg) + (5 X Height in cm) - (6.8 X age)

I’m not going to have a swimming suit body this summer, but I will next summer. Maybe I’ll even decide to get even thinner by then. I can’t wait to wear a bikini, even if it is a year away.



hello all of my new followers! 

please reblog if you want me to check out your blog if i’m not following you already!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m so freaking excited! I weigh 190!!!!!! 10lbs! (mind you, I lost this in 2 weeks not one) I was so scared I wasn’t going to lose anything because of a few f*ck ups, but wow, 10 lbs… I was not expecting that.

Hi! :)

No,my parents doesn’t know. My dad always talk to me about weight-loss,because i want to me do that…I think that i’ll be happy,but i’m not doing this for him at all.

My mother isn’t interested on weight.

Just some of my friends know about,because i don’t want they to say “oh great!”

Photo

I just grabbed my stomach fat and shook it in anger.

 

But that’s really what I want to do to my head for not paying attention that I had gotten so out of hand with bad eating habits and emotional-food connected coping.

I restart my diet. I’m hoping one of these days it will stick again.

Having a good Friday so far!

UGH! My mom bought some kind of italian cake called panttoni (or however you spell it) and its so high in calories. I had a huge slice of it with hot cocoa. Shit. I ain’t gonna reach my goal of losing 2 pounds this week. It was so delicious. UGH! I’m disappointed right now.

I’m starting my diet again as of tomorrow. 12 pounds (4kgs) is all i want to lose. why is it so difficult? I will reach that goal by the end of vacation. i have to.



can’t wait to get these when I get to my ugw. bullhead...



I know I don’t usually post “weight-loss” stuff like this, but bear with me.

I know a lot of people on tumblr are trying to lose weight to fit into clothes.

Your motivation is a really tight dress or a tiny pair of shorts.

While that’s nice and all, I highly encourage you to be careful. I’m not saying that all diets turn into eating disorders, but those that do develop into something more serious, it doesn’t end well.

Because honestly? It gets to a point where clothes don’t fit, and not in a good way.

The shorts in that picture are a size 00.

They don’t fit.

Because I ruined my body with nearly 4 years of malnutrition and starvation.

And that’s not pretty or dainty or sexy.

Looking like a child isn’t a good thing.

You don’t want the body of an 11 year old boy. 

Cause I actually have the body of an 11 year old. Not to be crude or anything, but I have no boobs, and no hips. And that really isn’t something to strive for. 

If you’re going to diet because you are overweight, and it is badly effecting your health, than please, go for it.

But don’t diet to get rid of curves. Because looking like a kid isn’t attractive.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to insult people who are naturally petite.

I’m just trying to discourage girls who are trying to lose weight in often unhealthy ways in an effort to fit into tiny clothes and have a small ‘dainty’ body.

Yeah, I know it’s cliche and way overused, but looking like a grownup woman with an actual body is a good thing. Love who you are. Don’t try to starve yourself smaller.

Please.

Thats what I’m telling myself- no new clothes till I’m 200 or less. I’m hoping that I can get down to this within the next 2 weeks! It’s SO hard for me to not go shopping- but I know that if I hold out I will be able to buy smaller sizes and shopping will be twice as rewarding! 

10 pounds to go! Wish me luck!

Much love!



Hi! I’m 23 years old and used to weigh 130lbs… after lots of life changes and poor diet choices I have gained over 40lbs in under 3 years. It is very embarrassing and painful but I blame no one but myself. I love to eat and I use food to fill me up when I am having any feelings that I don’t want to deal with such as: boredom…FOOD!, stress…FOOD!, loneliness…FOOD! This behavior has got to stop.

**Motivators**

I have family coming into town the weekend of July 8th, 2011 who are very critical. This diet is not for them but the kickstart of that weekend looming over me is going to be fuel for the fire.

I am also in my first wedding (other than being a flower girl) next May as a bridesmaid and am very excited about it. This is also a huge motivation for me to lose weight.

I understand that some people reading this may think this is an unhealthy amount of weight to lose in such a short period of time but I don’t care. I plan on using this blog to document my successes (and shortfalls) while holding myself accountable to my plan and hopefully have a little fun with it!

-A.



this before pic embarasses me so much.. but at the same time comparing these two motivates me so much to keep going and never give up. & never let myself look that way again..

5’9, from 185 to 157, lost 28 lbs

a total of 39 pounds down, 10-15 more to go! 

i got this!!! :)

WEIGHT LOG:

Starting Weight: 189.0 (Since the first day of my diet; I was 194.8 a week earlier)

Week 1: 184.4

Week 2: 181.4

Week 3: 179.8

Goal Weight: 135.0



can’t wait to get these when I get to my ugw. bullhead hermosa super skinnies. mmm.

Reasons to lose weight: to rock the hell out of a dress like...

Dinner @ Red Robin 7pm

•Ensenada Chicken™ Platter (salad and only one chicken breast- - i saved the other one for an omelet tomorrow morning)

• Water

We  walked around the mall after dinner and i had two See’s Candy Samples. =[ I knew i shouldn’t have but i did… NO MORE…

Morning: 120.6lbsNight: 122.2lbs =[

**P90x Plyometrics, 30 day shred Level 1 & Butt workouts**

this afternoon i had to buy new black pants for work IN A SMALLER SIZE because my old ones are now too big!! i haven’t even lost that much weight at all…but i must be toning up because not only was the waist of the pants really loose (and needing to be held up with a belt), but all down the leg was baggy. i actually looked quite shocking in them today. all those squats in body pump must be paying off!

off to power yoga tonight i think. need something slightly restful after the week i’ve had. then body pump on saturday morning - I’m going to up my weights again for squats and triceps.

around this little community we have here, tumblr?

do you feel a change?

you’ve been thinking to yourself, “when i get skinny, when i get skinny, when i get skinny…” but what if you don’t? because at 3 AM when stick-figures fill your dashboard, and your stomach is growling and all you can think about is that 4 cheese frozen pizza in the fridge and you haven’t eaten all day and you’ve been really good lately so what’s the harm…

and then you hate yourself and punish yourself and feel so low and worthless. but the next day is a new day so you keep up the mantra, “when i get skinny, when i get skinny, when i get skinny….”

but how about now? pre-skinny. what are you going to do now? 

maybe i’m at this point in my life where starving myself isn’t an option anymore. before i liked looking like a stick-figure. i was young and tiny and weightless and people wanted to protect me. now i’m 20 and i want to protect myself. i don’t want to be this little doe. i want to be a sexy woman. and i’m not there yet, i have a very long way to go. but i’m not doing it the old way anymore.

i’ve started to eat healthy foods, my fridge is stocked with fruits and veggies and my pantry has almonds and wheat pasta. i do toning exercises everyday and i go on runs when i don’t have to work. i have never felt better or looked better in my life.

i feel a change, tumblr.

people in this community have started to realize that they don’t need to be mindfucked every time they eat a bagel. the cycle can keep going or it can end.



UGH! I hate how I looked in my 2010’s birthday =/

Me alegra que ya no tengo esa panza fea =]

So tonight I made some grilled tofu steak things, but I wasn’t going to eat them yet because the rest of dinner wasn’t done being made. (Others were grilling chicken, making salad etc), wellllllll, it was after 9pm when everything was done. I was *going to go for a run, because I didn’t earlier, but it was hot until past dark/I can’t jog past dark around here, blah blah, so I missed dinner.

Question is: It’s now almost 1am, and I can’t sleep. My stomach is killing me with hunger, and I don’t want to slow my metabolism, but I also don’t want to eat and then fall asleep in an hour, turning it straight to fat. I’m craving everything, and resisting, but I don’t know if maybe I should have a glass of milk? It has protein anyway. Or we have these little grapefruit-cups, but they’re 100 calories, and no protein.. Where milk at least has some protein, and we have a no-fat kind.

Blah blah blah I’m hungry and I want to eat so my metabolism doesn’t die, but I also don’t want to gorge. Help :c

im in europe so my days r a little screwed but ill be here tilp the 3rd (i get back either 3rd or 4th)

30ds

I did great today.  I went to WalMart and bought me a food scale so that I can actually weight out certain foods.  I watched this video on YouTube once that showed how using a measuring cup for some food is actuall wrong, and made a BIG difference. 

I only ate about 850 calories today, which isn’t good, but I woke up so late that breakfast and morning snack time were already passed.  I’m not down with the whole starvation thing, but I didn’t want to stuff my self the the calories I missed this morning.

I spent alot of time online today researching different diets and dieting techniques.  This whole starvation diet sounds ridiculous to me.  Going days at a time without eating is obviously unhealthy.  I can’t imagine how painful that may be. (But that’s just my opinion). 

Sometimes I wonder if i will successfully lose all this weight.  I know there are so many people that try dieting over and over and are unsuccessful, then there are a few that manage to get it off and keep it off.  This is the biggest obstacle that I think i’ve faced in my life… I’m not used to failing at anything, which is why i’m sure that I can do this. 

~DAY 2~  Menu

Lunch- Instant grits with 2 eggs - 225cals

Snack - Special K Strawberry Bar - 90cals

Dinner - Cabbage Soup - 119cals

Snack - 2 bagels with cream cheese and 1/2 grapefruit - 385

plan: 
-7:30 am: eat melon, banana, and yogurt 
-7:45 am: walk the dog
-9 am: run
-11 am: eat kale salad
-2 pm: workout with my bestie 
-3:30 pm: post workout protein shake
-5:30 pm: bootcamp (circuit training)
-7:30 pm: fro-yo with the ladies

sounds pretty good. 

I need to buy my own scale so I can know for sure how much I weigh. Using other people’s or random scales in random places doesn’t work, because it only gives me an idea of how much I weigh, since every scale is different. I used to fluctuate between 117 and 122. Now I’m 127, but this was done on a scale at an aquarium (yeah, I don’t know why there was a scale there) about a month ago. I wish I could just know for certain my own weight just by wanting to know.

now shower and sleeeeeeep
me so tired.
gotta babysit in the morning.

Today was pretty good, minus a few things it wasn’t all that bad.

But now I’m fucked. I didn’t stick with my diet at all today, I didn’t eat a shit load of food but the food I did eat was shit. I know I went over my calorie limit. I didn’t do my situps this morning because I was at sarah’s. I fucking hate my life. I was almost to lost eight pounds and now i probally gained a pound or two back.

Why is this so fucking hard?!

Most people by now could have lost like fifteen lbs, but no not me. And if I eat one fucking thing that’s bad for you it throws everything off.

I’m telling you if my mom’s right about me having a thyroid problem and when I go back there for that check up and I have to get more bloodwork done because I have a thyroid problem I’m going to have to shoot fucking someone. Why can’t they just give me medicine and get it over with?! They do it any other fucking time.

And fucking the whole lupus thing, that’s bullshit.

“Yeah.. so you’re blood paletes or however the fuck you spell them are low and your mom has been diagnosed with lupus for over 35 years now and everything and it’s completely genetic but instead of trying to stop it and prevent it now and fix it were just gonna wait a couple months and then see how you’re doing.”

YEAH FUCK OFF I HATE DOCTORS

I work nights, so I’m usually on a day sleeping schedule.

I have a few people to text during the day, but it kills me that everyone is asleep when I’m awake at 2 in the morning, starring at my fridge with lustful eyes.

also: done spamming you guys with text posts for now.

Gotta go work :c

Project Lose It- Day 3UPDATE: 

Hey guys, Day 3!  I think today could have went a whole lot better if my mom didn’t bring me Wendy’s for dinner.  But eh, I still worked out. 

The workout log:

60mins

270cals

Goal for today: 500cals

As you can see I didn’t get any where close to the goal.  But I blame my muscles.   They are really hurting right now and I almost think I need to take some muscle relaxer.  I guess they are just not used to it.  

But yes, I needed up doing 20mins this morning and just did a 40min walk.  I could have gone longer but my legs were killing me.  I was basically dragging myself. 

Anywho….

Food Log (rly bad today)

B: tbsp of peanut butter

L: Hot pocket and a Mt. Dew (yeah not the best lunch one should eat, but I’m sure I’ll burn it off today, and besides I WAS HUNGRY!) 

D: Wedney’s Chicken sandwich and Tea. 

Tomorrow’s goal: eat better



When I really try, I think I’m really pretty.

When I look at my best pictures, I imagine how gorgeous I’ll be when I lose the weight and I smile

Second day seemed quicker. I can feel the burn, though! Who has made it through the entire cycle? Let me know how it was!!

I love snacking on a handful of nuts . 99% of the time they get...

I was thinking about what Albert Einstein and his famous quote on insanity. Einstein said that the...

I love snacking on a handful of nuts . 99% of the time they get rid of my cravings . GET IN :)

howthemightyfall replied to your post: i still have 11 lbs to lose. 2 down so far from my original 13 lbs to lose lol. you can d

Bad day, again.

Went to Oxford to say goodbye to friends as I’m leaving the country on Saturday. They insisted we go to a cafe and I tried to order the healthiest thing - a Tuscany panini (grilled veggies and mozzarella) with salad. Tried to take off some of the cheese but got a weird look from a friend, who was busy eating a chocolate sundae! Then after that they got some Greek treats and insisted I try some of this particular baclava. So I didn’t even calorie count today. Ugh.

My shoulders are sore. My left calve sort of hurts when I walk. But I’m losing weight.

My love handles have gone down, my stomach (upper and lower abs) are slowly going down (I can’t say that I’ve been eating 100 percent health, because then I’d be lying), and I’m getting excited. I honestly cannot wait for Level 2.

I think I might actually meet my goal weight by Christmas guys, and I wanted to reach it by my birthdays (which is in February). I. Cannot. Wait.

Wish me luck :) I love you all!

Okay, so technically it’s not the 22nd anymore since it’s after midnight, but oh well! Today marked the first day of my diet. I got the myfitnesspal app for my iphone and it’s got to be the best thing ever. It’s such an easy and accurate way to keep track of calorie intake and exercise, so I love it. I also got an ab workout app which is great as well and tomorrow I’ll be adding some more health/exercise related apps to my phone to keep things interesting. 

In order to lose 2 lbs a week, my daily calorie intake is supposed to be 1200 but I went out for dinner with a friend and my total for today ended up being 2025 calories. The good thing is that I burned 600 calories from my workout, so I only ended up being 225 calories over. 

I’m actually really excited about this because for the first time ever, I actually feel like I can do this and I will do this. I’m going to be healthy, I’m going to happy, and I’m going to be proud when all this is done. This is just the beginning, but I can’t wait to see the end results. 

Well it’s already 1:29 am, so I’m going to quickly create an exercise routine page for this blog, spend a little bit of time on my other blog, and hopefully get to sleep within the next hour. Good night, xo. 

I know i have a bunch of goals on my goal page, but this is just a random simple one.

First day of summer was the 21st of June, so I would like to lose 15 lbs by the first day of fall (Sept. 23rd)

I think it’s healthy and realistic and I would def be feeling great at that weight by the end of the summer. It isn’t my ultimate goal, but it’s a lot closer and since I know I am getting more confident every day that passes, I might be damn close to cocky at that point :)

Warning: Although this is still my goal and I will be working towards it, I am taking a very intense summer course in Human Anatomy and it’s pretty much going to be taking over my life, so i want to apologize beforehand of my infrequent visits or posts on Tumblr. However, I am sure that my digits will slip and my mouse will end up checking tumblr every few hours. Ugh, the obsession!

Waist is down 3 inches from when I started. Hips are down 4. Thigh is down at least 2. Makes Becca a happy bunny :) 

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This is people’s primary problem with dieting successfully. Dont expect to change yourself over night. Your fat burning metabolism will drop as soon as you start dieting if you try to change too suddenly and you’ll become demotivated from the get-go.

That’s awesome! Good job! I think my goal is a healthy and strong 135, so I have about 13-10 (depending on the day) pounds to loose. 

I’d LOVE to have done it before my 19th - but that is incredibly unlikely! I guess we will see…  

today i realized..

Breakfast:  100% liquid egg whites (75 calories), 1 cup spinach (7 calories), and 1/4 cup fat free shredded cheddar cheese (45 calories)

Lunch:  2 cups spinach (14 calories), 1/2 cup halves strawberries (24 calories), 1/2 cup chopped carrots (26 calories), 1/2 cup sliced cucumbers (8 calories), 12 Meal Starters chik’n strips (140 calories), 2 tbsp raspberry vinaigrette (60 calories)

Dinner:  Flour tortilla (218 calories), mixed vegetables (91 calories), 1/4 cup crumbled feta cheese (99 calories), 1 tbsp olive oil (119 calories), 1 tbsp vinegar (3 calories)

TOTAL:  Fat: 35.9  Carbs: 89.7  Prot: 66.9  Calories: 930

I was really bored watching Criminal minds so, suddenly, I started doing some lunges and now I am covered up in sweat!

Today is the first time I do 100 Jumping jacks in a row, I normally do them in two sets of 50, after doing those 100 I felt my calves burn like hell, but, DAAAAMN! it felt so freaking good! You know what? I’m going to do 100 more! wait…

and here’s that amazing feeling again! I’m Done!

This week I didn’t exercise that hard, want to know why? well, prepare yourself for a laaame excuse, it’s all beacuse I straightened my hair LOL, but seriously I don’t want to mess my hair :(

Anyway, I’m going to take a refreshing shower in a couple of minutes, then I’m going to read a bit of Harry potter and later I may go to sleep, or watch Castle haha.

Wow, this is quite long! Stay motivated guys? 

I have loss some weight (and am VERY grateful for this)… but I know I can, and SHOULD be losing more weight than I have.

It’s time to kick it up a few notches…..

Ugh… I feel horrible. I feel like I ate to much today, because I did, and now I’ve been rubbing my face for the last half and hour. I feel like it’s been gaining fat and I even feel like I can feel it growing on my face… God my face feels ugly right now, not to mention my stomach. I ate dinner around 6:00pm. It’s now about 9:50 and I feel that the same crap I ate is still sitting in there and just made me bigger. I even ran today as well as workout… I guess that didn’t help at all.

I hate this feeling… It’s either I eat something and feel like a fat ass all day or eat nothing and the constant bombardment of questions from my parents of “Did you eat today?” or “Why haven’t you eaten?” I hate having to deal with that… They should just leave me alone for once… God. “Mom, I have enough trouble with eating and who I am. Deciding if I’m going to regret the 15 carrots I’m going to eat for all of today… Stop asking me about it!”

I wish my life could give me a break for once. I wish I didn’t have to worry about what I eat or even worry that I’m going to regret it in the end. I wish I could tell when my body was full so I can eat a normal size meal and not binge when I do eat… I just want to be normal and not be fucked up all the time. Worrying about every little thing… If only wishes did come true.

I won’t be posting a detailed list of my intake, but I will say it was around 1100 calories. I came down with a flu-like sickness and won’t be working out for the next few days! Hopefully I feel better soon! 

On the bright side- I ombred my black extensions to a beautiful sandy blonde and they look fabo! I’m never getting my hair done at the salon again since this only costed me $10. Next, I’ll do my real hair. ;)

 and im down to 109.4 lbs! hell yea making progress!!! so stoked.

been working hard, eating healthy, and exercising at least some every day. w00t.

I normally eat a teeny tiny salad for lunch everyday, and barely pick at my dinner. But today I ate an entire sandwich (turkey, lettuce, pepperjack) and then half an apple, and I was so full I was sick the rest of the day.

When I got home my mom made chicken, brocolli, potatoes, and corn. I ate a little bit of everything and I felt so sick that I had to purge.

I haven’t in almost a week, so I was kind of upset with myself that I even ate it in the first place. 

I think I went on auto pilot eating because I had just ran 2miles. 

I feel so sick now, and my throat burns. But at least I’m empty.

Ive lost an entire pant size now, so I am incredibly happy. and I’m down to 105.  I just feel lonely right now.

I need to create a two hour workout routine for tomorrow morning so I don’t have to run into that dick of a weight training instructor. There’s a weight room that also includes treadmills and bikes, I’d rather not use em’ to be honest because there’s a beautiful track outside. Please help! 

that i am a total binger.

I ate pineapple and grapes for breakfast.. then when i got done with work i was STARVING.. and since we get food cheap at  the restuarant i worked at i ordered some food to go.. you want to know what i ordered… GOOSE CALLS..

Not from Wisconsin? Particularly Green Lake? Well goose calls are mozzeral cheese sticks wrapped in tortillas deep fried and then served with marinara sauce… i ate them ALL.. SEVEN of them… i wasnt even that hungry by the fourth one but i ate them any way… then i felt like shit, came home… ate a salad..went to the gym came home again ate some cheese and an apple and some peanuts.. hummm i neeeeeed to lose this weight…

Check out this sweat! Seven miles at 80 degrees does icky...

wow, I over-did it. I don’t even remember the last time I haven’t ran or lifted or both on the same day. At the moment my body is just like “DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT” and felt like a heart attack when I tried to run. I still have to lift later because I haven’t in a day or two, so yeah :l. Hopefully I don’t die lol.

Progress for the last while..it’s small but keep in mind I’m still a fatass. Gonna keep running in the 2.7 mile area because it’s almost a 5k and it’s still challenging but not too hard either. Afternoon is too hard because of the miserable sun, gonna try to wake up earlier or just do it when the sun is down at 8 :l.

I’m done.

I have lost 86 lb i feel so much beter cant wate tell i am down to my gaol weight of 150 i am at 224 now



I officially fit into a medium.

Which means no more XL for me. Some larges probably but definitely no more XL.

I’m back in a better mood now about losing weight. I guess 2lbs every 2 months is better than no lbs lost.



Check out this sweat! Seven miles at 80 degrees does icky looking things to your body. Yeah it’s gross, but it also means that I didn’t half-ass that run. :)

(If you can’t tell, the entire shirt is COVERED. The only part that isn’t is the little area in my back where my bra absorbed the sweat. Yeah I’m proud, lol.)

Quick workout

debating whether or not I want to post my before and after pictures of my 55 lb. weight loss.

hmmmm, I don’t know

I just went to get my Greek yogurt out of my lunch bag.

Someone knocked it over with their lunch bag.

THEIR DARTH VADER LUNCH BAG!

I work in a fortune 100 company. The accounting and tax department share the fridge. I must find out who uses this lunch box. And maybe give then a dirty look for knocking over my lunch.



The Atlanta Journal-Constitution ran my success story in their printed edition today.  Its a little overwhelming, honestly.  I have worked hard and still have work to do, but the number of people that have seen this so far and commented on it, without me mentioning it, is very flattering to say the least. 

At the time I answered these questions, I had only hit the 60 pound mark.  Kinda cool to know that I dropped 5 more since that time.  The article also says I am 5 away from my goal.  Well, I want to drop 26 more, which will put me under 200.  Like I said, I still have work to do.  Anyway, you can read the online version here.

I do not post this stuff as a pat on the back or to brag.  I post this stuff to prove that anyone can do this.  Take that first step to a new lifestyle and never look back.

Read! - Jillian Michaels OWN battle with obesity

I haven’t been here in a few weeks…but now I’m back for good. I was going through some hard things and now it’s all over, it’s in my past. I’m ready to start exercising daily and eating right and counting my calories. Hello Fitspo and Thinspo and other weight loss blogs! I’m back! :]

behealthybee earned 388 points for:

  • Cycling (stationary):
    • 00:21:04 || 10.0 km (+178 pts)
  • Running (treadmill):
    • 00:26:53 || 3.0 km (+210 pts) - W2 D3 C25K

Also used the ‘wave’ machine which is similar to elliptical/cross-trainer for 10 minutes.

I was shattered today so no weights. 

Starting weight: 207

Last week’s WIW: 182

Today: 181

Change this week: -1

Total loss so far: -26

I had a brief, brief visit from the 170’s fairy yesterday afternoon (179.5!!!) and about fell right off the scale, but apparently she decided not to stick around very long (I blame shark week for scaring her off).  But soon SOON I will be seeing her again!!  

Regardless, I had a great week this week.  I ate well, I exercised a lot, and the scale is finally moving in the right direction again after being stuck for 3 weeks!  So even though it is shark week, I’m not complaining!



Just another reason she’s such an inspiration to me!

20 jumping jacks
30 jumps with imaginary jump rope  
30 mountain climbers
60 punch combination (straight punches + cross punches)
10 squat thrust

going to do this now! :) 

GUYSGUYSGUYS:

I can’t wait for my 32 waist jeans to fit me again. Nor can I wait for my size small t-shirts to fit without making me look like I’m wearing a size too small.

The Atkins diet is amazing. I can’t get over how much better it’s made me feel day-to-day, even though the weight loss hasn’t been that significant yet. I don’t feel tired in the afternoons anymore. I don’t crave sugary foods. I don’t miss bread, or milk, or pasta, or rice. They’re all just stodgey crappy fattening foods in my mind now, and I happily avoid them!

Things that I should probably start to do to speed up my weight loss (or maintain it as I increase my carb count) are to drink more water, drink less ‘diet / sugar-free’ fizzy drinks, and do more exercise. I’ve started riding my bike to work again as of this morning though, and as of next week I’ll be bringing bottles of water to work and making sure I drink a full one each day!

I’m on day 16 now, and even after a little cheating on Friday, Saturday and Sunday evenings (only wine, nothing THAT bad), I’m still losing - slowly but surely.

Starting weight: 14 st. 2 (198 pounds)

Current weight: 13 st. 8 (190 pounds)

Target weight: 11 st. 6 (160 pounds)

According to my current weight loss patterns, I should be slim(ish) again within the next 2 months. Exciting times! :)

cycled to swmming there and back (3.5 miles), then swam 80 lengths (2km) :)

had a banana and water for breakfast and then for lunch i had cous cous (136cals) and a turkey and coleslaw wholemeal bread sandwich (200 cals) and i was stuffed! :)

gonna go see my grandparents now :)

brb :)

anyone who’s interested in losing/gaining weight this summer messege me!

you know what that means……………..

hitting the gym twice!

Pretty much absolutely nothing. But I guess I should be happy considering I actually ate yesterday.

Drank a full water bottle this morning with a dieuretic. Don’t plan on eating today.

June 1, 2011

Orange juice, Mighty Mango Smoothie, Naked Blue Machine Smoothie, Cranberry Juice, and tons of water!!

I hate when my workout video says “Focus on the muscles along your ribcage.” I wanna say “Fool, ain’t nothing there but Fat and BBQ sauce!”



That’s my “I’m dying but I ran my mile” face. You can’t really see the sweat dripping off my face. But I promise it is.

Tonight, I went out specifically to see how fast I could do my mile. My fastest walking mile (according to Adidas MiCoach) was 14:49. I knew I could do faster than that, even if I only jogged half the time.

It was tonight that I realized my body was okay with running, but my lungs were not. It felt like I was having an asthma attack, but it wasn’t a full fledged one. I used my inhaler multiple times, but all I suffered from was a tight chest and a very sore throat; there was no wheezing. Because of the uncomfortable feelings, I ran a couple tenths of a mile, walked 30 seconds, ran some more, walked some, etc. Part of me wanted to quit, but I refused to. I knew what I came to do, and I wanted to make sure I beat that mile.

I killed my mile time tonight. New PR of 11:51.

I could tell that I was running faster than I ever had on the treadmill. I looked down at my tracker at one point and it had my mile predicted at 9:58. What? That’s faster than I ever thought I was running. I kind of thought I was just shuffling along (at least that’s what my shadow looked like).

So, I came to a couple realizations tonight:

  • I really do like running.
  • The majority of my body likes it, too.
  • Except my lungs. Party poopers.
  • I really do have it in me to run a mile. And actually run, not just shuffle along.
  • 7 months ago, I never would have imagined jogging, let alone running a sub-12 minute mile.
  • My body is capable of producing a shit-ton of sweat in under 15 minutes. Holy shit.
  • I’m a beast. For real.
  • Nothing can stop me now.

My goal over June is to run a mile once a day, and see how fast I am by the end of June.

Watch out, sub-11 minute mile. I’m coming for ya’.

Giving up coffee this week hasn’t gone so well:P I got a crazy craving this afternoon and made myself a lovely cup of hot chai tea with a little splenda and the rest of the cream in my fridge:P Craving-satisfied. I miss my joe though:P

I’ve been staying SO low carb the last week and am still stuck at this plateau. So I’m trying something I read (an early post I linked to) and having myself a lovely, cheesy pizza on cauli-crust. YUMM. Don’t know if this will yank the scale down at all, but I’m sure going to enjoy trying!! With a large glass of cyrstal light on the side of course:P

Forgot to mention!!! I weighed in at 115.4 lbs today :)

So proud… hope you all can reach your dreams too.

xx.

Can you believe it’s already June Simba????!?!?!?!?!?!!! I sure can’t. It’s ridiculous. We’re getting O to the L to the D. Gah. 

So, here are our goals (Simba, you add to this post ok?)

  • drink more water
  • exercise at least 3 times a week
  • go to WW meetings every week
  • T-face: get under 70kgs
  • T-face: pain free back
  • TRACK!!
  • plan
  • bring lunch to work every day
  • limit soft drink to twice a week
  • only drink alcohol twice a week


You Are Beautiful.



This is the ab workout from P90 (not P90x). He does it way too fast so I made this to use instead, haha.

On 2/3 you have to do them on both your right and left side. Feel free to do more than 10 reps, that’s just what he says to do :D

Fruits

01. Apricots
The Power:  Beta-carotene, which helps prevent free-radical damage and protect the eyes. The body also turns beta-carotene into vitamin A, which may help ward off some cancers, especially of the skin. One apricot has 17 calories, 0 fat, 1 gram of fiber. Snacks on them dried, or if you prefer fresh, buy when still firm; once they soften, they lose nutrients.

02. Avocados
The Power:  Oleic acid, an unsaturated fat that helps lower overall cholesterol and raise levels of HDL, plus a good dose of fiber. One slice has 81 calories, 8 grams of fat and 3 grams of fiber. Try a few slices instead of mayonnaise to dress up your next burger.

03. Raspberries
The Power:  Ellagic acid, which helps stall cancer-cell growth. These berries are also packed with vitamin C and are high in fiber, which helps prevent high cholesterol and heart disease. A cup has only 60 calories, 1 gram of fat and 8 grams of fiber. Top plain low-fat yogurt or oatmeal (another high fiber food) with fresh berries.

05. Cantaloupe
The Power:  Vitamin C (117mg in half a melon, almost twice the recommended daily dose) and beta-carotene - both powerful antioxidants that help protect cells from free-radical damage. Plus, half a melon has 853mg of potassium - almost twice as much as a banana, which helps lower blood pressure. Half a melon has 97 calories, 1 gram of fat and 2 grams of fiber. Cut into cubes and freeze, then blend into an icy smoothie.

06. Cranberry Juice
The Power:  Helps fight bladder infections by preventing harmful bacteria from growing. A cup has 144 calories, 0 grams of fat and 0 fiber. Buy 100 percent juice concentrate and use it to spice up your daily H20 without adding sugar.

07. Tomato
The Power:  Lycopene, one of the strongest carotenoids, acts as an antioxidant. Research shows that tomatoes may cut the risk of bladder, stomach and colon cancers in half if eaten daily. A tomato has 26 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Drizzle fresh slices with olive oil, because lycopene is best absorbed when eaten with a little fat.

08. Raisins
The Power:  These little gems are a great source of iron, which helps the blood transport oxygen and which many women are short on. A half-cup has 218 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Sprinkle raisins on your morning oatmeal or bran cereal - women, consider this especially during your period.

09. Figs
The Power:  A good source of potassium and fiber, figs also contain vitamin B6, which is responsible for producing mood-boosting serotonin, lowering cholesterol and preventing water retention. The Pill depletes B6, so if you use this method of birth control, make sure to get extra B6 in your diet. One fig has 37 to 48 calories, 0 fat and 2 grams of fiber. (Cookie lovers - fig bars have around 56 calories, 1 gram of fat and 1 gram of fiber per cookie). Fresh figs are delicious simmered alongside a pork tenderloin and the dried variety make a great portable gym snack.

10. Lemons and Limes
The Power:  Limonene, furocoumarins and vitamin C, all of which help prevent cancer. A wedge has 2 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Buy a few of each and squeeze over salads, fish, beans and vegetables for fat free flavor. See also: Beneficial Bytes: Lemons and Limes.

Vegetables

11. Onions
The Power:  Quercetin is one of the most powerful flavonoids (natural plant antioxidants). Studies show it helps protect against cancer. A cup (chopped) has 61 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Chop onions for the maximum phytonutrient boost, or if you hate to cry, roast them with a little olive oil and serve with rice or other vegetables.

12. Artichokes
The Power:  These odd-looking vegetables contain silymarin, an antioxidant that helps prevent skin cancer, plus fiber to help control cholesterol. One medium artichoke has 60 calories, 0 fat and 7 grams of fiber. Steam over boiling water for 30 to 40 minutes. Squeeze lemon juice on top, then pluck the leaves off with your fingers and use your teeth to scrape off the rich-tasting skin. When you get to the heart, you have found the best part!

13. Ginger
The Power:  Gingerols may help reduce queasiness; other compounds may help ward off migraines and arthritis pain by blocking inflammation-causing prostaglandins. A teaspoon of fresh gingerroot has only 1 calorie, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Peel the tough brown skin and slice or grate into a stir-fry.

14. Broccoli
The Power:  Indole-3-carbinol and sulforaphane, which help protect against breast cancer. Broccoli also has lots of vitamin C and beta-carotene. One cup (chopped) has 25 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Don’t overcook broccoli - instead, microwave or steam lightly to preserve phytonutrients. Squeeze fresh lemon on top for a zesty and taste, added nutrients and some vitamin C.

15. Spinach
The Power:  Lutein and zeaxanthin, carotenoids that help fend off macular degeneration, a major cause of blindness in older people. Plus, studies show this green fountain of youth may help reverse some signs of aging. One cup has 7 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Add raw leaves to a salad or saute with a little olive oil and garlic.

16. Bok Choy (Chinese cabbage)
The Power:  Brassinin, which some research suggests may help prevent breast tumors, plus indoles and isothiocyanates, which lower levels of estrogen, make this vegetable a double-barreled weapon against breast cancer. A cup will also give you 158mg of calcium (16 percent of your daily recommended requirement) to help beat osteoporosis. A cup (cooked) has 20 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Find it in your grocer’s produce section or an Asian market. Slice the greens and juicy white stalks, then saute like spinach or toss into a stir-fry just before serving.

17. Squash (Butternut, Pumpkin, Acorn)
The Power:  Winter squash has huge amounts of vitamin C and beta-carotene, which may help protect against endometrial cancer. One cup (cooked) has 80 calories, 1 gram of fat and 6 grams of fiber. Cut on in half, scoop out the seeds and bake or microwave until soft, then dust with cinnamon.

18. Watercress and Arugula
The Power:  Phenethyl isothiocyanate, which, along with beta-carotene and vitamins C and E, may help keep cancer cells at bay. One cup has around 4 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Do not cook these leafy greens; instead, use them to garnish a sandwich or add a pungent, peppery taste to salad.

19. Garlic
The Power:  The sulfur compounds that give garlic its pungent flavor can also lower LDL (“bad”) cholesterol, lower blood pressure and even reduce your risk of stomach and colon cancer. A clove has 4 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Bake a whole head for 15 to 20 minutes, until soft and sweet and spread on bread instead of butter.

Grains, Beans, Dairy and Nuts

20. Quinoa
The Power:  A half cup of cooked quinoa has 5 grams of protein, more than any other grain, plus iron, riboflavin and magnesium. A half-cup has 318 calories, 5 grams of fat and 5 grams of fiber. Add to soup for a protein boost. Rinse first, or it will taste bitter.

21. Wheat Germ
The Power:  A tablespoon gives you about 7 percent of your daily magnesium, which helps prevent muscle cramps; it is also a good source of vitamin E. One tablespoon has 27 calories, 1 gram of fat and 1 gram of fiber. Sprinkle some over yogurt, fruit or cereal.

22. Lentils
The Power:  Isoflavones, which may inhibit estrogen-promoted breast cancers, plus fiber for heart health and an impressive 9 grams of protein per half cup. A half-cup (cooked) has 115 calories, 0 fat and 8 grams of fiber. Isoflavones hold up through processing, so buy lentils canned, dried or already in soup. Take them to work, and you will have a protein packed lunch.

23. Peanuts
The Power:  Studies show that peanuts or other nuts (which contain mostly unsaturated “good” fat) can lower your heart-disease risk by over 20 percent. One ounce has 166 calories, 14 grams of fat and 2 grams of fiber. Keep a packet in your briefcase, gym bag or purse for a protein-packed post-workout nosh or an afternoon pick me up that will satisfy you until supper, or chop a few into a stir-fry for a Thai accent. See also: The Nut Case

24. Pinto Beans
The Power:  A half cup has more than 25 percent of your daily requirement of folate, which helps protect against heart disease and reduces the risk of birth defects. A half-cup (canned) has 103 calories, 1 gram of fat and 6 grams of fiber. Drain a can, rinse and toss into a pot of vegetarian chili.

25. Yogurt
The Power:  Bacteria in active-culture yogurt helps prevent yeast infections; calcium strengthens bones. A cup has 155 calories, 4 grams of fat, 0 grams of fiber. Get the plain kind and mix in your own fruit to keep calories and sugar down. If you are lactose intolerant, never fear — yogurt should not bother your tummy.

26. Skim Milk
The Power:  Riboflavin (a.k.a. vitamin B2) is important for good vision and along with vitamin A might help improve eczema and allergies. Plus, you get calcium and vitamin D, too. One cup has 86 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. If you are used to high fat milk, don’t go cold turkey; instead, mix the two together at first. Trust this fact: In a week or two you won’t miss it!

Seafood

27. Shellfish (Clams, Mussels)
The Power:  Vitamin B12 to support nerve and brain function, plus iron and hard-to-get minerals like magnesium and potassium. Three ounces has 126 to 146 calories, 2 to 4 grams of fat and 0 fiber. Try a bowl of tomato-based (and low fat) Manhattan clam chowder.

28. Salmon
The Power:  Cold-water fish like salmon, mackerel and tuna are the best sources of omega-3 fatty acids, which help reduce the risk of cardiac disease. A 3-ounce portion (cooked) has 127 calories, 4 grams of fat, 0 fiber. Brush fillets with ginger-soy marinade and grill or broil until fish flakes easily with a fork.

29. Crab
The Power:  A great source of vitamin B12 and immunity-boosting zinc. A 3-ounce portion has 84 calories, 1 gram of fat, 0 fiber. The “crab” in sushi is usually made from fish; buy it canned instead and make your own crab cakes.

Wow. Today is the last full day that I will be a junior. Starting at 2:45 tomorrow I will officially be a senior in high school…

It’s interesting because the immediate reason I decided to make this blog, and start my weight loss, is that I wanted to look good for the annual senior class trip to the beach, which means by next May I want to have lost about fifty pounds.

I want it so much. I know I’m going to have to work hard but I’m so so so tired of being overweight and feeling embarrassed about myself and my body. I want to feel good for college and senior year. I’m committed.

Stats Update:

So only lost 1/2 a pound last week, but it’s cool, I haven’t been this light in, ummm, forever. This week is not going to be a losing weight kind of week either because a 4 day music festival is not really optimal conditions for a diet. I believe that on vacation you should be having fun and nothing else, this only happens once a year and I will not spend it freaking out over every little piece of food or drink. Yay!! Lots of last minute shopping and packing to do!! SO EXCITED!



General plan is:

Giving up meat, as of now! I gave it up completely (including fish) a few months ago and missed it...

http://losewithme.tumblr.com/calories

http://losewithme.tumblr.com/calories

http://losewithme.tumblr.com/calories

In case anyone didn’t see that super long post the other day.

Oh, and I now have a handy button to get back to my main page…

it makes me poop a lot.
and it just so happens to be scrumptious.

hehe :3

I just added more pictures to my progress blog , I can see a bit of a difference. Not too much but I’m definitely getting there. Still not giving out the PW though, sorry loves..it shows my true identity. I think I’m gonna wait until I’m down to like 140 to share.

Exercise first thing in the morning on an empty stomach.  Studies show if you exercise on an empty stomach, you’re more likely to burn fat instead of carbohydrates.  If you don’t have a chance to exercise before eating in the morning, don’t eat 2 hours prior to working out.

xx sarah

me and my boyfriend are starting a weight loss competition TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~ I know boys usually lose faster than girls, but he doesn’t know howwwww determined I am to beat him. I will win.

Me - 117 6/6

Him - 145 6/6

We will weigh in every Tuesday. Wish me luck :3

Day 3 Goal: 400 calories

Breakfast:

2 egg whites- 34 calories

Lunch:

2% Reduced Fat Milk- 130 calories

String Cheese- 80 calories

10 Saltine Crackers- 120 calories

Snacks:

Special K Bar- 90 calories

Dinner:

Morning Star Asian Veggie Burger- 100 calories

Light Bread- 90 calories

5 Shrimp- 64 calories

Day Total: 708 calories 

Exercise:

70 minutes of ballet: -284 calories

15 minutes of walking at 4 mph: -63 calories

Net Total (Grand Total): 361 calories

This sucks. -__-

My MacBook is messed up and won’t let me add text over my photos.

The picture on the left was from two months ago when I started working out I weighed 159 pounds, the picture in the middle was from one month ago I weighed 155 pounds and the final picture on the right was just taken I am weighing 151 pounds right now. 

I still have a long way to go and I feel like I can’t see the results that the scale and the measuring tape are showing me. Since I started I’ve lost 3 inches off my waist and one inch off my hips. As you can probably guess when I started working out two months ago I wasn’t too into it and didn’t really give it my all. After seeing my body and realizing that I need to be healthy not just for me, but for my son too, I’m busting ass five nights a week and I’m getting back in shape. I will be healthy again! 

I’m excited for my three-day cleansing phase, which starts tomorrow. I get to eat as much red meat as I want! STEAK STEAK STEAK STEAK STEAK

So yeah, my diet for the next three days will consist of oranges, eggs, unlimited red meat (without salt), unlimited (uncooked) green veggies, and lots and lots of water.



Also AMAZING, 25 cals (I think?) and 1.25g’s of fat per wedge. Awesome snack with some whole grain crackers!

I try not to do a lot of product promotion because that would get really annoying but just hear this out:

My trainer, some of her other clients and I have been using these protein shakes and we’ve had a lot of success with them so far. Basically, you can substitute one or two meals a day with them, they’re packed with everything you need and they taste amazing (especially blended with almond milk instead of water). Even if you’ve already reached your weight goal it’s a great way to get a quick breakfast and stay on track. One bag lasts about a month and it works out to around $1.50/meal. 

If you’d like to give them a try please let me know in my ask box and I’ll send you her link so you can order some for yourself. 

Giving up meat, as of now! I gave it up completely (including fish) a few months ago and missed it so I started eating it again, well in all honesty it was a moment of weakness and I figured, oh well I’ve eaten meat now why bother anymore. But after looking at how bad my eating habits have become since I’ve allowed meat back into my diet I’m giving it up again for good. I’m going to allow fish this time though, so technically I’ll be a pescetarian. I’m not even bothered by this change I’m more excited than anything actually and I just thought I’d blog about it..

Okay, three days in and I LOVE Weight Watchers.

195.4 this morning :)

time for work, then working out (of course) after. bye!

forgot to do this yesterday, oops!

My parents know I am trying to lose weight. They are also trying to lose weight which makes this 10000x easier. And they care that I am doing it the right way and not striving for something I can’t be. But they are happy I want to get healthy.

I’ve been feeling sick lately. Sneezing, dizziness, headaches, runny nose, extreme fatigue, and an inability to sleep. My mom has been insisting that it’s because I’m not eating enough, but I’ve been making an effort to eat more (and I already eat a healthy amount).

So last night she kept telling me to eat more, kept giving me more food. It was bad. Lots of junk. So I went to a friend’s house and got high. But that didn’t end well either, we went to get cupcakes and ran into one of my bosses. I don’t think she cared/knew though, she just yelled at me for buying cupcakes when they made a bunch of extras at the end of the night shift and we could have had them for free.

But I talked to my mom this morning. If the problem was the amount of food, then eating would fix these things. But it doesn’t, I eat and feel better for like ten minutes then feel sick again. So it obviously isn’t quantity, if it’s anything it’s the quality.

I have had anemia before, and that was pretty much how I felt. That was when I was a vegetarian and got most of my protein from eggs, nuts, and dairy. All good things, but none of them are particularly high in iron. That’s how my diet has been lately, little meat and nothing to compensate for the lack of iron.

So I talked to my mom about it and she agreed to lay off a bit because it really stresses me out. But as a result, I have to have two cups of Cheerios every day because it’s iron fortified and that will give me 90% of my need. OH NO I HAVE TO EAT MY FAVORITE CEREAL.

But I hope that it helps, I really hate feeling like this.

However, that will not prevent me from drinking a liter of coffee at work tonight.

Going to go work out now, even though I just want to keep watching Dexter with the heating pad on my legs. I think I’m going to petition to have watching this show added to the list of cardio exercises. Why? Because my heart beats so fucking fast every time I see Michael C Hall. Bro is easy on the eyes.

(today’s one)

I do Zumba and Jillian Micheals DVDs. I switch them around doing mostly what I feel I need that day. If I’m too sore from Jillian I usually do a Zumba.

I’m trying to start running but I have to train myself to work up to it because I have a slight asthma problem and really bad allergies.

Oh geeze, I can’t believe I’m posting this… But this is me, currently @ 200.8lbs.

At least I weighed 5lbs less than I thought I did. Just waiting on my friend to call me and then we are going running or something. Lol it was suppose to be yesterday but she couldn’t find a babysitter. Ugg, hope I never have to see myself look like that ever again.



Yea!! I’m so glad to see a lower number this morning and not the 183 that has been haunting me! Happy Friday all!

(Please excuse the sideways photo. I tried taking it several times, but my iPhone kept auto-rotating every different direction.)

I’m going back to the hospital with my dad today.  He’s making Maidrites.  His maidrites are so good.  Fattening, I’m sure, but delicious.  I think I’m going to have him stop at the grocery store there in town so I can get myself something a bit more nutritional.  Come time for the funeral (let’s face it, it’s going to happen), there will be so much food to eat we won’t know what to do with ourselves.  I would rather not ruin that for myself so early in the game.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do, though.  I don’t want to annoy my dad by making him stop before we get clear out to the hospital, but I know either way he will be.

I will do 30 Day Shred tonight.  I’ve noticed my endurance for it is getting better.  A few more times on level one and I’m going to switch over to level 2.

I havent really been sticking to this weight loss plan properly, so today, I vow to make a new (new) start and document my progress properly on here.

I will take 2 before pictures tonight and post them. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give me abuse about them! I neeeeeeeed to get slim!

Im actually quite proud of myself, as I work in a fast food restaurant, so its quite easy to just take a fry, but I havent eaten ANYTHING for the past 3 shifts. YAY!

Stay tuned for photos after i come back from work!

Because I am mighty tired of hearing mum and her hellishly negative and neurotic tone of voice. Just being around her makes me tense and anxious and generally depressed. I know joining the same program she is on could go either way: on the one hand, she could get even worse and constantly ask what is on my menu, on the other she might actually relax for a change.

(She’s currently downstairs having a shouting match with my little brother. And here I was thinking things were going well. Clearly she’s back to her stressed out irrational phase).

At any rate I think it will be great to go and have a weekly weigh in and see someone who isn’t her. 

First of all, I know I’m not supposed to weigh myself every day (even the eTools won’t let me record my weight more than once a week), but I’d ballooned up to 172 and stayed there for a solid two weeks. Then, magically, I started W.W. and now I’m back under 170. (169.5, so only a little, but I’ll take it!) I know, I know—it’s just normal body fluctuations, bodies do that, etc. etc. etc. But it was SUCH a relief.

Second, I like how they’ve changed the system. It really feels like I’m doing something different. Now, instead of basing their points on calories, they base them on carbs, fat, protein, and fiber. I get 30 points a day, which is plenty. Also, fruits and veggies are free now. I remember on the old system that a large apple was 2 points, which was frustrating.

Only complaint: the tall nonfat chai lattes from Starbucks that I love so much, and which were 2 points on the old plan, are now a whopping 5 points. Ah well. You can’t win ‘em all.

Lastly, and maybe most importantly, W.W. costs money. Essentially, if I don’t lose weight, I’ve wasted my own precious moolah through dumbness and poor choices. Well, that isn’t going to happen. My motivation regarding my weight comes and goes in waves, but my motivation to not waste my money is something I deal with on the regular.

Alright, body. This is it. Prepare to be better.

(Also, is anyone else here on W.W.? I’d love to talk with y’all about it!)

29. Goals for the next 30 days.

I absolutely love seeing pictures of before and afters (or durings). It is refreshing to see REAL people accomplish their weight loss goals. Seeing other people succeed gives me strength and motivation. It also makes me genuinely happy. =)

Can’t wait to have my own before and after.



Diet pizza! Kind of weird, but it was good! Haha.

  • 90 Calorie Flatout Wrap
  • Broccoli
  • SmartDog Vegetarian Hot Dog
  • Banana Peppers
  • Ragu Sauce
  • Kraft fat free Mozzarella
  • Reduced fat Feta

315 calories. 33g carbs. 5g fat. 40g protein.

I’m loosing weight like a champ 

So my goal of not eating fast food has failed. It’s hard to avoid it when you work and don’t feel like cooking…ever.

I’ve been slacking on working out too. I’ve been either busy and/or tired. I have a bad feeling I will not meet my weight loss goal for this month.



A pair of vegan Toms will be my reward when I weigh 199 lbs. 20 lbs to go :)

Pounds: 150 149 148 147 146 145 144 143 142 141 140 139 138 137 136 G1(135) 134 133 132 131 G2(130) 129 128 127 126 maybe someday (125)

Kilos: 68 67 66 65 64 63 62 61 60 59

WOW!!! I really can’t remember the last time I hit under 140 without it shooting back up to 140 in a day!!! This time it’s gong to keep coming off because it’s a lifestyle change and I’m determined to be the best me  I can be! :

(?)

A loss of 0.5lbs in a week! What the fuck? 
I’m eating like 900cals max now but I’m exercising double (i burn over 1000cals a day now) so…
Mabie my body isn’t used to it yet?

Should I weigh myself again on Sunday or something? :s
Am I plateau-ing? :s  

About the shakes, I just want to make something clear to those who complain about my desicions. I drink them for the nutrition and protein, YES, but mostly I just drink them because 1) I don’t have to think about what to eat when I get hungry and 2) I won’t binge on loads of stuff at the dinner table, I’ll have my shake and know just how many calories I had.

I have never had a good relationship to food, it’s all in or nothing. So in order to keep my eating and anxiety under control, I drink shakes. No worries. So this is not so much about the nutrition. That is all. xx

Just weighed myself.

128.6

5 days ago I was 126.6.

I haven’t eaten more than 1400 calories a day and worked out every. single. day.

What the FUCK! That must ALL be water because there’s no way I’ve eaten 7000 extra calories in 5 days! I know it won’t all be fat but seeing a gain and everything, it’s still pretty disheartening.

Grumpy.

Might as well do this before I go to sleep.

It’s down to the last two questions and boy, are they boring! I will have to start another challenge after this is over, one that touches on some hard-hitting subjects. I like answering good questions.

Anyway.

Well, I haven’t really thought about what I want to accomplish over the next 30 days. Actually, I do know one thing. I want to lose more weight and maintain a healthy diet. I guess that’s two things, but whatever. But yes, I am doing well. I have been at 170 for the past couple days. I feel like I’m stuck, but I’m trying not to get discouraged.

I just saw that, for my height of 5’2”, my ideal weight would be 125lbs. I’ll shoot for that (NOT within 30 days, that’s just absurd) and see if it makes me happy. To be honest, 169 would make me happy right about now. Just get me out of the 170s! I think I can lose three to four pounds in a week, so I’ll shoot for a loss of around 15 for the month. Sounds good!

Oh! Within the next 30 days, I will be going on vacation! So, another goal is to have a good, restful, fun vacation.

Since it is summer vacation and since I am a college graduate, I don’t feel obligated to make too many goals for the next month. I do have one more: to make some progress on my search for a REAL career.

1. Lose more weight.
2. Maintain healthy diet.
3. Have a great vacation.
4. Make progress in career search.

There you have it.

One more day of this challenge! 

lost another pound!

All right, I’m going to try this daily intake thing. I used to calorie count, but that was when I was sticking to around 1200 calories a day, with exercise, and I got nowhere. So I’m going to count calories without a limit, but obviously try and eat as few as possible. Ugh, even the word ‘calories’ is starting to sound likeGluttonous Yellow FAT…



Breakfast:

Oats and soya milk - 200

Green tea & 500ml water

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20 crunches



Lunch:

Wholemeal wrap with cream cheese, tomato & lettuce - 250

Half a yoghurt & 1 clementine - 80

Green tea & 1L water

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20 minutes fast cycling - 200

20 squats



Dinner:

Plain vegetable curry - 100

1/4 packet of Tilda pilau rice - 65

Green tea & 500ml water

/

20 squats

20 crunches

20 jumping jacks

Breakfast:

Oats and soya milk - 200

Coffee (dammit!) - 50

500ml water

/

20 crunches

20 squats




This is what Girls Generation (famous Korean girl band) eats while on a diet.

Crazy stuff, and I’m pretty sure they’re not getting enough nutrients… But their willpower is definitely motivating.

The Couch-to-5K Running Plan:

This is a good method to jogging/walking. Start off slow, and work your way to the top!!


This is from 2009


this fall 2010


2008


2010 Oct.


nov. 2010


grad party 2009


2008


Dec 2008

I know some of these pictures are edited horribly but looking at these made me even more motivated. As much as it hurts to look at recent pictures I needed to. I need a visual reminder of who I use to be. I need to see that I could get healthy again. I wish I had pictures from my lightest weight but I don’t have a scanner. Well any ways her are some of my favorite pictures of me and some of my least favorite.


summer before college


10th grade


senior year I just like my arm


me now ( oct. 2010)

These aren’t the best pictures but I think the show how drastically my weight changed.

And im going out tonight, there will be rum, copious amounts of it, and will probably lead to some kind of fat and carb based snack at the end of the night.

CANT WAIT!

I then have a fathers day bbq thing on sunday, so ive pretty much written this week off. Am not using this as an excuse to binge, but i dont expect any weight loss at all this week. Ive still had a very healthy breakfast and have salad for lunch. But, you know. weight doesnt come off when rum is involved does it??!?!?!?

Anyway - we have just got these work t shirts because we are running an event on saturday. My boss couldnt believe i was a size 14, which i am. because that was the size she was wearing. I tried it on, and it looked fine, but she insisted i took a 16 which is baggy as hell. Annoying.I suspect that has more to do with the fact that she thinks shes thinner than me, and actually she isnt. Conclusion: Women are bitches.

Im still really confused about mr saturday night as well. Hes talking to me via facebook, lots of flirty conversations, but if i text him, i get no reply, WTF is that all about? I do not understand men at all. I was hoping to see him this weekend, but noting has been said ( despite when i said, lets just leave it, he said no and he did want to see me and stop being silly…) So - ive just made other plans instead, because im not going to sit in waiting for him.

I’m done with my little mope over my ex (why, I DO NOT know) and my few fat days are nearing their end.

The decision I have come to is…to get back on plan and stay there…

…from tomorrow of course, tonight is my first night off in ages so I’m going to enjoy it!

:D

They’re actually my step sister’s friends which means that she’ll be busy/they won’t care so I can have a mini period of NO EATING!!! :DD AT ALL!!! A mini fast. Then I’ll get back and try to trick mum again… :S 

but this time I’m happy about it because I’m finally making progress again instead of bouncing from 199 to 198

197 baby!