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What I just shared has put me in such a bad mood. I am going to try and eat nothing for the rest of...

So here’s a picture of my woman for motivation.

Can’t let myself get discouraged if the scale starts doing its crazy fluctuating thing all over again. I have to get into the gym today, but I have a call-in for work and wanted to only go if I knew for a fact that I didn’t have to go in for work, because I don’t have time if I go workout now and then have to go to work. I’m feeling blaaahh. I was all excited because the scale said 145.1 a couple of days ago, but it decided to say 145.5 yesterday and then 146.5 today. It’s this fluctuation that I can’t let get to me. I have to stop myself from climbing on top of the scale every day, make sure I’m eating right and drinking more water, and tell myself that if I’m doing the best I can, then I’ll get to where I want to be. Grr. It’s hard to be positive.

Everyone’s beautiful. 
But if you take a photo of a person and aspire to look like them at some point in your weight loss journey, there is a high chance of you being disappointed.

Your body’s unique.
Of course, there are body types, and generalizations, but there is no way you can look at someone else’s body and expect to look like that at that weight.
Reasons: 

  • Muscle tone
  • Body fat percentage
  • Bone structure
  • Random genetics ( I have a huge ass, all the women in my family do )
  • … and tons of others. 

That’s one of the things that I think is so rewarding about this weight loss journey. 
You’re basically freeing yourself, recreating yourself, defining yourself :)

And no amount of thinspiration can tell you how the outcome will be :) 
Your body is so different, so special, so unique :)  

What I just shared has put me in such a bad mood. I am going to try and eat nothing for the rest of the day… FUCK THEM! He will be my inspiration to look amazing and shove it in his face…

binge-ing

So badly that I wanna cry.

I weighed myself this morning and I did lose a total of 5 pounds this week! That means I’ve lost a total of 10 pounds in just the few weeks I’ve been doing this. Which feels so good!

I’ve been keeping really busy. That’s why I wasn’t here at all yesterday. I am sooo close to being completely finished with my apartment. The living room and kitchen are all done and honestly, it’s never looked better. And last night I was so tired, I went to sleep easily with my muscles aching. It felt good.

Today I am doing my laundry over at my parents so I will be hanging out over there today. I haven’t seen them all week and we’re really close so I miss them.

I’ll go through my dashboard tonight and get all caught up with you guys!

Hope everyone has a great day!

I was a little upset recently because my only gauge that I was losing inches (besides measuring lol) was watching vainly as my stomach has started to disappear. I’ve had my gut since I first got into this mess. I just wanted it to go away.

And it occurred to me that I looked in the mirror and didn’t see it moving this week. Cue depression and melodramatics.

Well… yesterday my mom was staring at me kind of hard like she was like inspecting me.

She told me that she could notice the weight loss in my arms, legs, and the rest of my over all body, not just my stomach.

And when I went over my boyfriend’s house he said to me, “You’re losing so much weight…” as he went on to poke and prod at the areas he noticed it at.

So I guess it wasn’t a bad thing, my body just kind of decided some fat from elsewhere needed to be gone too. I can drink to that!!! …. Some water anyway lol.

The Claim: Your Stomach Shrinks When You Eat Less

I’ve given up my bad eating habits. Before I would eat whatever I wanted, I never looked at nutritional facts. And I would eat when I wasn’t even hungry. Now I pay attention to everything and I eat a lot more fresh fruits and vegetables. I hardly ever drink pop anymore and when I do, it’s diet, I pretty much only drink water or at least Crystal Light.

Even though it’s hard sometimes, I’m fine with the things I’ve given up, it’ll be completely worth it in the end.

but I still don’t base my self worth on a number from a scale, and I pity those girls who do. 

Starting Weight: 150

Goal Weight: 120 by December 31 2011.

How i plan on doing it: Dancing, walking, jogging, Breastfeeding, Dieting, eating less fast food, drinking more water, exercising.

Day Twenty- Favorite diet?

I don’t believe in diets because they have the word “die” in it. I believe in changing my lifestyle by having healthy eating habits and working out.

Self-control. It’s just two words. Two little words stuck together, forever, with a hyphen. Self-control. Three syllables. Three vowels. A five word definition:

The ability to control oneself.

I need better self-control. Leave me alone in my house for longer than an hour and I’m munching on everything. A perpetual snacker. A perfect day of eating the healthiest food, taking in the right number of calories, doing a proper amount of exercise can be spoiled so easily with one measly breach of self-control. An entire day of making myself better is thrown away.

Only it never feels like one day. It feels like an entire week comes crashing down. As if those few minutes when I’ve thrown caution and self-control to the wind have ruined my entire life. And, after a few minutes, I close the bag of chips, or stop chewing on a brownie mid-chew, and think, fuck.

A classy word, I know, but it’s true. It’s instant regret. It’s instant shame. It’s instant self-loathing. Instant self-deprecation. Fuck.

Today I’ve been good. Today I’ve eaten exactly what I was planning to eat. No surprise snacks. No rifling through kitchen cabinets or the fridge. I’ve been good. I feel good. Proud, even. But one craving at the right moment could bring me down.

Self-control.

Such a simple word, but it’s the key to everything.

I cant remember the last time I was even “able” to binge. I honestly don’t even know what its like to eat a normal serving for a real meal anymore. I am constantly poking at my food, and then just getting so nervous I can’t even eat half of it. 

What stage of this ED am I at when I don’t binge anymore, because the idea of losing that level of control makes me shake just thinking about it. What’s sad is I WANT to eat a home cooked meal of my moms. I want to be able to eat an entire chicken breast and some healthy corn and not go on an emotional rollar coaster. But I can’t. I can’t eat it all, because my mind just tells me I’m fat, that that means I’m failing, and that I’ll never be pretty if I don’t contain myself and have some control. 

My mind keeps screaming fat fat fat, and failure whenever I eat anything. Today I got some yogurt, and I could only eat half of it because I honestly felt like I was instantly gaining weight. 

I don’t like this feeling, and feel trapped with these voices in my head. Maybe when I reach a lower weight, then I’ll stop. But i just cant.

June 1, 2011

Orange juice, Mighty Mango Smoothie, Naked Blue Machine Smoothie, Cranberry Juice, and tons of water!!

I hate when my workout video says “Focus on the muscles along your ribcage.” I wanna say “Fool, ain’t nothing there but Fat and BBQ sauce!”



That’s my “I’m dying but I ran my mile” face. You can’t really see the sweat dripping off my face. But I promise it is.

Tonight, I went out specifically to see how fast I could do my mile. My fastest walking mile (according to Adidas MiCoach) was 14:49. I knew I could do faster than that, even if I only jogged half the time.

It was tonight that I realized my body was okay with running, but my lungs were not. It felt like I was having an asthma attack, but it wasn’t a full fledged one. I used my inhaler multiple times, but all I suffered from was a tight chest and a very sore throat; there was no wheezing. Because of the uncomfortable feelings, I ran a couple tenths of a mile, walked 30 seconds, ran some more, walked some, etc. Part of me wanted to quit, but I refused to. I knew what I came to do, and I wanted to make sure I beat that mile.

I killed my mile time tonight. New PR of 11:51.

I could tell that I was running faster than I ever had on the treadmill. I looked down at my tracker at one point and it had my mile predicted at 9:58. What? That’s faster than I ever thought I was running. I kind of thought I was just shuffling along (at least that’s what my shadow looked like).

So, I came to a couple realizations tonight:

  • I really do like running.
  • The majority of my body likes it, too.
  • Except my lungs. Party poopers.
  • I really do have it in me to run a mile. And actually run, not just shuffle along.
  • 7 months ago, I never would have imagined jogging, let alone running a sub-12 minute mile.
  • My body is capable of producing a shit-ton of sweat in under 15 minutes. Holy shit.
  • I’m a beast. For real.
  • Nothing can stop me now.

My goal over June is to run a mile once a day, and see how fast I am by the end of June.

Watch out, sub-11 minute mile. I’m coming for ya’.

Giving up coffee this week hasn’t gone so well:P I got a crazy craving this afternoon and made myself a lovely cup of hot chai tea with a little splenda and the rest of the cream in my fridge:P Craving-satisfied. I miss my joe though:P

I’ve been staying SO low carb the last week and am still stuck at this plateau. So I’m trying something I read (an early post I linked to) and having myself a lovely, cheesy pizza on cauli-crust. YUMM. Don’t know if this will yank the scale down at all, but I’m sure going to enjoy trying!! With a large glass of cyrstal light on the side of course:P

Forgot to mention!!! I weighed in at 115.4 lbs today :)

So proud… hope you all can reach your dreams too.

xx.

Can you believe it’s already June Simba????!?!?!?!?!?!!! I sure can’t. It’s ridiculous. We’re getting O to the L to the D. Gah. 

So, here are our goals (Simba, you add to this post ok?)

  • drink more water
  • exercise at least 3 times a week
  • go to WW meetings every week
  • T-face: get under 70kgs
  • T-face: pain free back
  • TRACK!!
  • plan
  • bring lunch to work every day
  • limit soft drink to twice a week
  • only drink alcohol twice a week


You Are Beautiful.



This is the ab workout from P90 (not P90x). He does it way too fast so I made this to use instead, haha.

On 2/3 you have to do them on both your right and left side. Feel free to do more than 10 reps, that’s just what he says to do :D

Fruits

01. Apricots
The Power:  Beta-carotene, which helps prevent free-radical damage and protect the eyes. The body also turns beta-carotene into vitamin A, which may help ward off some cancers, especially of the skin. One apricot has 17 calories, 0 fat, 1 gram of fiber. Snacks on them dried, or if you prefer fresh, buy when still firm; once they soften, they lose nutrients.

02. Avocados
The Power:  Oleic acid, an unsaturated fat that helps lower overall cholesterol and raise levels of HDL, plus a good dose of fiber. One slice has 81 calories, 8 grams of fat and 3 grams of fiber. Try a few slices instead of mayonnaise to dress up your next burger.

03. Raspberries
The Power:  Ellagic acid, which helps stall cancer-cell growth. These berries are also packed with vitamin C and are high in fiber, which helps prevent high cholesterol and heart disease. A cup has only 60 calories, 1 gram of fat and 8 grams of fiber. Top plain low-fat yogurt or oatmeal (another high fiber food) with fresh berries.

05. Cantaloupe
The Power:  Vitamin C (117mg in half a melon, almost twice the recommended daily dose) and beta-carotene - both powerful antioxidants that help protect cells from free-radical damage. Plus, half a melon has 853mg of potassium - almost twice as much as a banana, which helps lower blood pressure. Half a melon has 97 calories, 1 gram of fat and 2 grams of fiber. Cut into cubes and freeze, then blend into an icy smoothie.

06. Cranberry Juice
The Power:  Helps fight bladder infections by preventing harmful bacteria from growing. A cup has 144 calories, 0 grams of fat and 0 fiber. Buy 100 percent juice concentrate and use it to spice up your daily H20 without adding sugar.

07. Tomato
The Power:  Lycopene, one of the strongest carotenoids, acts as an antioxidant. Research shows that tomatoes may cut the risk of bladder, stomach and colon cancers in half if eaten daily. A tomato has 26 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Drizzle fresh slices with olive oil, because lycopene is best absorbed when eaten with a little fat.

08. Raisins
The Power:  These little gems are a great source of iron, which helps the blood transport oxygen and which many women are short on. A half-cup has 218 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Sprinkle raisins on your morning oatmeal or bran cereal - women, consider this especially during your period.

09. Figs
The Power:  A good source of potassium and fiber, figs also contain vitamin B6, which is responsible for producing mood-boosting serotonin, lowering cholesterol and preventing water retention. The Pill depletes B6, so if you use this method of birth control, make sure to get extra B6 in your diet. One fig has 37 to 48 calories, 0 fat and 2 grams of fiber. (Cookie lovers - fig bars have around 56 calories, 1 gram of fat and 1 gram of fiber per cookie). Fresh figs are delicious simmered alongside a pork tenderloin and the dried variety make a great portable gym snack.

10. Lemons and Limes
The Power:  Limonene, furocoumarins and vitamin C, all of which help prevent cancer. A wedge has 2 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Buy a few of each and squeeze over salads, fish, beans and vegetables for fat free flavor. See also: Beneficial Bytes: Lemons and Limes.

Vegetables

11. Onions
The Power:  Quercetin is one of the most powerful flavonoids (natural plant antioxidants). Studies show it helps protect against cancer. A cup (chopped) has 61 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Chop onions for the maximum phytonutrient boost, or if you hate to cry, roast them with a little olive oil and serve with rice or other vegetables.

12. Artichokes
The Power:  These odd-looking vegetables contain silymarin, an antioxidant that helps prevent skin cancer, plus fiber to help control cholesterol. One medium artichoke has 60 calories, 0 fat and 7 grams of fiber. Steam over boiling water for 30 to 40 minutes. Squeeze lemon juice on top, then pluck the leaves off with your fingers and use your teeth to scrape off the rich-tasting skin. When you get to the heart, you have found the best part!

13. Ginger
The Power:  Gingerols may help reduce queasiness; other compounds may help ward off migraines and arthritis pain by blocking inflammation-causing prostaglandins. A teaspoon of fresh gingerroot has only 1 calorie, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Peel the tough brown skin and slice or grate into a stir-fry.

14. Broccoli
The Power:  Indole-3-carbinol and sulforaphane, which help protect against breast cancer. Broccoli also has lots of vitamin C and beta-carotene. One cup (chopped) has 25 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Don’t overcook broccoli - instead, microwave or steam lightly to preserve phytonutrients. Squeeze fresh lemon on top for a zesty and taste, added nutrients and some vitamin C.

15. Spinach
The Power:  Lutein and zeaxanthin, carotenoids that help fend off macular degeneration, a major cause of blindness in older people. Plus, studies show this green fountain of youth may help reverse some signs of aging. One cup has 7 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Add raw leaves to a salad or saute with a little olive oil and garlic.

16. Bok Choy (Chinese cabbage)
The Power:  Brassinin, which some research suggests may help prevent breast tumors, plus indoles and isothiocyanates, which lower levels of estrogen, make this vegetable a double-barreled weapon against breast cancer. A cup will also give you 158mg of calcium (16 percent of your daily recommended requirement) to help beat osteoporosis. A cup (cooked) has 20 calories, 0 fat and 3 grams of fiber. Find it in your grocer’s produce section or an Asian market. Slice the greens and juicy white stalks, then saute like spinach or toss into a stir-fry just before serving.

17. Squash (Butternut, Pumpkin, Acorn)
The Power:  Winter squash has huge amounts of vitamin C and beta-carotene, which may help protect against endometrial cancer. One cup (cooked) has 80 calories, 1 gram of fat and 6 grams of fiber. Cut on in half, scoop out the seeds and bake or microwave until soft, then dust with cinnamon.

18. Watercress and Arugula
The Power:  Phenethyl isothiocyanate, which, along with beta-carotene and vitamins C and E, may help keep cancer cells at bay. One cup has around 4 calories, 0 fat and 1 gram of fiber. Do not cook these leafy greens; instead, use them to garnish a sandwich or add a pungent, peppery taste to salad.

19. Garlic
The Power:  The sulfur compounds that give garlic its pungent flavor can also lower LDL (“bad”) cholesterol, lower blood pressure and even reduce your risk of stomach and colon cancer. A clove has 4 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. Bake a whole head for 15 to 20 minutes, until soft and sweet and spread on bread instead of butter.

Grains, Beans, Dairy and Nuts

20. Quinoa
The Power:  A half cup of cooked quinoa has 5 grams of protein, more than any other grain, plus iron, riboflavin and magnesium. A half-cup has 318 calories, 5 grams of fat and 5 grams of fiber. Add to soup for a protein boost. Rinse first, or it will taste bitter.

21. Wheat Germ
The Power:  A tablespoon gives you about 7 percent of your daily magnesium, which helps prevent muscle cramps; it is also a good source of vitamin E. One tablespoon has 27 calories, 1 gram of fat and 1 gram of fiber. Sprinkle some over yogurt, fruit or cereal.

22. Lentils
The Power:  Isoflavones, which may inhibit estrogen-promoted breast cancers, plus fiber for heart health and an impressive 9 grams of protein per half cup. A half-cup (cooked) has 115 calories, 0 fat and 8 grams of fiber. Isoflavones hold up through processing, so buy lentils canned, dried or already in soup. Take them to work, and you will have a protein packed lunch.

23. Peanuts
The Power:  Studies show that peanuts or other nuts (which contain mostly unsaturated “good” fat) can lower your heart-disease risk by over 20 percent. One ounce has 166 calories, 14 grams of fat and 2 grams of fiber. Keep a packet in your briefcase, gym bag or purse for a protein-packed post-workout nosh or an afternoon pick me up that will satisfy you until supper, or chop a few into a stir-fry for a Thai accent. See also: The Nut Case

24. Pinto Beans
The Power:  A half cup has more than 25 percent of your daily requirement of folate, which helps protect against heart disease and reduces the risk of birth defects. A half-cup (canned) has 103 calories, 1 gram of fat and 6 grams of fiber. Drain a can, rinse and toss into a pot of vegetarian chili.

25. Yogurt
The Power:  Bacteria in active-culture yogurt helps prevent yeast infections; calcium strengthens bones. A cup has 155 calories, 4 grams of fat, 0 grams of fiber. Get the plain kind and mix in your own fruit to keep calories and sugar down. If you are lactose intolerant, never fear — yogurt should not bother your tummy.

26. Skim Milk
The Power:  Riboflavin (a.k.a. vitamin B2) is important for good vision and along with vitamin A might help improve eczema and allergies. Plus, you get calcium and vitamin D, too. One cup has 86 calories, 0 fat and 0 fiber. If you are used to high fat milk, don’t go cold turkey; instead, mix the two together at first. Trust this fact: In a week or two you won’t miss it!

Seafood

27. Shellfish (Clams, Mussels)
The Power:  Vitamin B12 to support nerve and brain function, plus iron and hard-to-get minerals like magnesium and potassium. Three ounces has 126 to 146 calories, 2 to 4 grams of fat and 0 fiber. Try a bowl of tomato-based (and low fat) Manhattan clam chowder.

28. Salmon
The Power:  Cold-water fish like salmon, mackerel and tuna are the best sources of omega-3 fatty acids, which help reduce the risk of cardiac disease. A 3-ounce portion (cooked) has 127 calories, 4 grams of fat, 0 fiber. Brush fillets with ginger-soy marinade and grill or broil until fish flakes easily with a fork.

29. Crab
The Power:  A great source of vitamin B12 and immunity-boosting zinc. A 3-ounce portion has 84 calories, 1 gram of fat, 0 fiber. The “crab” in sushi is usually made from fish; buy it canned instead and make your own crab cakes.

Wow. Today is the last full day that I will be a junior. Starting at 2:45 tomorrow I will officially be a senior in high school…

It’s interesting because the immediate reason I decided to make this blog, and start my weight loss, is that I wanted to look good for the annual senior class trip to the beach, which means by next May I want to have lost about fifty pounds.

I want it so much. I know I’m going to have to work hard but I’m so so so tired of being overweight and feeling embarrassed about myself and my body. I want to feel good for college and senior year. I’m committed.