Breakfast Tomorrow

I’m going to Creation with my family tomorrow. I’m going to have to live with them in a camper for 4 days, and eat every meal together, plus snacks and desert. How am I supposed to lose weight if they are watching my every bite? :p

To the anon, who asked for a pic………

107 pounds :)

The treadmill we have is so old. None of the buttons/counters work anymore and the belt keeps sliding to the side.

I’m too broke/cheap to get a membership though :| Wish I just had an elliptical in my basement :p

1 yogurt diet: 63kcal

1 espresso without sugar: 2kcal

Total: 65kcal

Running: the best medicine for this bullshit world.

fuck yeahhhhh

omfg I’m so happy right now 

I still want to lose more weight, but this is beyond encouraging!

Running: the best medicine for this bullshit world.

What I just shared has put me in such a bad mood. I am going to try and eat nothing for the rest of...

So here’s a picture of my woman for motivation.

Can’t let myself get discouraged if the scale starts doing its crazy fluctuating thing all over again. I have to get into the gym today, but I have a call-in for work and wanted to only go if I knew for a fact that I didn’t have to go in for work, because I don’t have time if I go workout now and then have to go to work. I’m feeling blaaahh. I was all excited because the scale said 145.1 a couple of days ago, but it decided to say 145.5 yesterday and then 146.5 today. It’s this fluctuation that I can’t let get to me. I have to stop myself from climbing on top of the scale every day, make sure I’m eating right and drinking more water, and tell myself that if I’m doing the best I can, then I’ll get to where I want to be. Grr. It’s hard to be positive.

Everyone’s beautiful. 
But if you take a photo of a person and aspire to look like them at some point in your weight loss journey, there is a high chance of you being disappointed.

Your body’s unique.
Of course, there are body types, and generalizations, but there is no way you can look at someone else’s body and expect to look like that at that weight.
Reasons: 

• Muscle tone
• Body fat percentage
• Bone structure
• Random genetics ( I have a huge ass, all the women in my family do )
• … and tons of others. 

That’s one of the things that I think is so rewarding about this weight loss journey. 
You’re basically freeing yourself, recreating yourself, defining yourself :)

And no amount of thinspiration can tell you how the outcome will be :) 
Your body is so different, so special, so unique :)  

What I just shared has put me in such a bad mood. I am going to try and eat nothing for the rest of the day… FUCK THEM! He will be my inspiration to look amazing and shove it in his face…

Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?

SOMEDAY! 

The equations for your base metabolic rate:

English BMR Formula:
Women: 655 + (4.35 X Weight in lbs) + (4.7 X Height in inches) - (4.7 X age)
Men: 66 + (6.23 X Weight in lbs) + 12.7 X Height in inches) - (6.8 X age)

Metric BMR Formula:
Women: 655 + (9.6 X Weight in kg) + (1.8 X Height in cm) - (4.7 X age)
Men: 66 + (13.7 X Weight in kg) + (5 X Height in cm) - (6.8 X age)

I’m not going to have a swimming suit body this summer, but I will next summer. Maybe I’ll even decide to get even thinner by then. I can’t wait to wear a bikini, even if it is a year away.

hello all of my new followers! 

please reblog if you want me to check out your blog if i’m not following you already!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m so freaking excited! I weigh 190!!!!!! 10lbs! (mind you, I lost this in 2 weeks not one) I was so scared I wasn’t going to lose anything because of a few f*ck ups, but wow, 10 lbs… I was not expecting that.

Hi! :)

No,my parents doesn’t know. My dad always talk to me about weight-loss,because i want to me do that…I think that i’ll be happy,but i’m not doing this for him at all.

My mother isn’t interested on weight.

Just some of my friends know about,because i don’t want they to say “oh great!”

binge binge binge

Lunch/Breakfast: Egg, toast and raspberries

Dinner: Pasta with marinara sauce and strawberries

Snack: Popcorn, grapes

Calorie Intake: 694

Calorie Output: 2365

Net Calories: -1554

I never notice on days that I’ve eaten less until I calculate my calories, it feels like I’m eating the same amount.

Going running at 6am :)

I’ve realized how important running is. My friend from work has been running everyday and eating what she wants, but choosing healthier foods and has been looking and feeling better than ever. (that’s not her though^ haha)

She has a healthy glow to her, her body is toning up in a beautiful healthy curvy way and she truly looks amazing.

Stay strong and push yourself to get off the sofa or out of bed and go running. You girls are all so beautiful and I want you to feel it too :)

another face change proof :) 

me -66lbs, in less than a year :)

it is worth it so yeah :)

can’t wait to weigh myself tomorrow morning. hope its not a let down. so close to hitting 66kg - i was 67.2 this morning, and i ate really well and killed myself at body pump today. increased my weights for squats and triceps like i mentioned, and it was absolutely fine! i’ve quadrupled the weight i use on the squat track since i started doing pump properly only a couple of weeks ago! i’m getting stronger. never been able to see/feel it like this before.

have moroccan oil all through my hair as a treatment and it smells DELICIOUS.

another face change proof :) 

me -66lbs, in less than a year :)

it is worth it so yeah :)

breakfast: oatmeal with banana, egg beaters and almond butter(200)
lunch(on the go): wrap with 1 tbsp cream cheese and tomato(150), cheese stick(70), yogurt(80)
snack: almonds(100), apple(80)
dinner: clam chowder(200), strawberries(50)
snack: sugar free hot coco(25)
TOTAL: 1055+error

To anybody out there on this weight loss journey I just want to reach out. I feel so alone, isolated, depressed, & distraught. I find myself crying almost every night now thinking all those years I messed up my journey. I’m now at the point where I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve restarted this journey over the last 5 years and have only managed to get bigger. I recently saw the guy I like at my cpr renewal course & when I got home I couldn’t help but break down and cry about how hopeless my chances are. He only knows a minute portion of just how much I adore him yet all my efforts so far have been unsuccessful. I feel as if every part of me is in pieces. Academically, emotionally, physically, socially….and not to talk of a nonexistent love life which has lasted over a year now. I deserve to be happy and confident. I need to prove that I can conquer my fears. I need this. I need him.

I am stronger than this shit. I will lose weight.

Pull yourself together girl, not again. 

Yes, this weekend was shocking in terms of food. But starting right now I’m going to be back onto eating healthy and hitting the gym Monday to Friday. I was doing well, in a messed up kind of way, I don’t want to keep hovering around this weight, I still have so far to go.

Photo

I just grabbed my stomach fat and shook it in anger.

 

But that’s really what I want to do to my head for not paying attention that I had gotten so out of hand with bad eating habits and emotional-food connected coping.

I restart my diet. I’m hoping one of these days it will stick again.

Having a good Friday so far!

UGH! My mom bought some kind of italian cake called panttoni (or however you spell it) and its so high in calories. I had a huge slice of it with hot cocoa. Shit. I ain’t gonna reach my goal of losing 2 pounds this week. It was so delicious. UGH! I’m disappointed right now.

I’m starting my diet again as of tomorrow. 12 pounds (4kgs) is all i want to lose. why is it so difficult? I will reach that goal by the end of vacation. i have to.

can’t wait to get these when I get to my ugw. bullhead...

I know I don’t usually post “weight-loss” stuff like this, but bear with me.

I know a lot of people on tumblr are trying to lose weight to fit into clothes.

Your motivation is a really tight dress or a tiny pair of shorts.

While that’s nice and all, I highly encourage you to be careful. I’m not saying that all diets turn into eating disorders, but those that do develop into something more serious, it doesn’t end well.

Because honestly? It gets to a point where clothes don’t fit, and not in a good way.

The shorts in that picture are a size 00.

They don’t fit.

Because I ruined my body with nearly 4 years of malnutrition and starvation.

And that’s not pretty or dainty or sexy.

Looking like a child isn’t a good thing.

You don’t want the body of an 11 year old boy. 

Cause I actually have the body of an 11 year old. Not to be crude or anything, but I have no boobs, and no hips. And that really isn’t something to strive for. 

If you’re going to diet because you are overweight, and it is badly effecting your health, than please, go for it.

But don’t diet to get rid of curves. Because looking like a kid isn’t attractive.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to insult people who are naturally petite.

I’m just trying to discourage girls who are trying to lose weight in often unhealthy ways in an effort to fit into tiny clothes and have a small ‘dainty’ body.

Yeah, I know it’s cliche and way overused, but looking like a grownup woman with an actual body is a good thing. Love who you are. Don’t try to starve yourself smaller.

Please.

Thats what I’m telling myself- no new clothes till I’m 200 or less. I’m hoping that I can get down to this within the next 2 weeks! It’s SO hard for me to not go shopping- but I know that if I hold out I will be able to buy smaller sizes and shopping will be twice as rewarding! 

10 pounds to go! Wish me luck!

Much love!

Hi! I’m 23 years old and used to weigh 130lbs… after lots of life changes and poor diet choices I have gained over 40lbs in under 3 years. It is very embarrassing and painful but I blame no one but myself. I love to eat and I use food to fill me up when I am having any feelings that I don’t want to deal with such as: boredom…FOOD!, stress…FOOD!, loneliness…FOOD! This behavior has got to stop.

**Motivators**

I have family coming into town the weekend of July 8th, 2011 who are very critical. This diet is not for them but the kickstart of that weekend looming over me is going to be fuel for the fire.

I am also in my first wedding (other than being a flower girl) next May as a bridesmaid and am very excited about it. This is also a huge motivation for me to lose weight.

I understand that some people reading this may think this is an unhealthy amount of weight to lose in such a short period of time but I don’t care. I plan on using this blog to document my successes (and shortfalls) while holding myself accountable to my plan and hopefully have a little fun with it!

-A.

this before pic embarasses me so much.. but at the same time comparing these two motivates me so much to keep going and never give up. & never let myself look that way again..

5’9, from 185 to 157, lost 28 lbs

a total of 39 pounds down, 10-15 more to go! 

i got this!!! :)

WEIGHT LOG:

Starting Weight: 189.0 (Since the first day of my diet; I was 194.8 a week earlier)

Week 1: 184.4

Week 2: 181.4

Week 3: 179.8

Goal Weight: 135.0

can’t wait to get these when I get to my ugw. bullhead hermosa super skinnies. mmm.

Reasons to lose weight: to rock the hell out of a dress like...

Dinner @ Red Robin 7pm

•Ensenada Chicken™ Platter (salad and only one chicken breast- - i saved the other one for an omelet tomorrow morning)

• Water

We  walked around the mall after dinner and i had two See’s Candy Samples. =[ I knew i shouldn’t have but i did… NO MORE…

Morning: 120.6lbsNight: 122.2lbs =[

**P90x Plyometrics, 30 day shred Level 1 & Butt workouts**

this afternoon i had to buy new black pants for work IN A SMALLER SIZE because my old ones are now too big!! i haven’t even lost that much weight at all…but i must be toning up because not only was the waist of the pants really loose (and needing to be held up with a belt), but all down the leg was baggy. i actually looked quite shocking in them today. all those squats in body pump must be paying off!

off to power yoga tonight i think. need something slightly restful after the week i’ve had. then body pump on saturday morning - I’m going to up my weights again for squats and triceps.

around this little community we have here, tumblr?

do you feel a change?

you’ve been thinking to yourself, “when i get skinny, when i get skinny, when i get skinny…” but what if you don’t? because at 3 AM when stick-figures fill your dashboard, and your stomach is growling and all you can think about is that 4 cheese frozen pizza in the fridge and you haven’t eaten all day and you’ve been really good lately so what’s the harm…

and then you hate yourself and punish yourself and feel so low and worthless. but the next day is a new day so you keep up the mantra, “when i get skinny, when i get skinny, when i get skinny….”

but how about now? pre-skinny. what are you going to do now? 

maybe i’m at this point in my life where starving myself isn’t an option anymore. before i liked looking like a stick-figure. i was young and tiny and weightless and people wanted to protect me. now i’m 20 and i want to protect myself. i don’t want to be this little doe. i want to be a sexy woman. and i’m not there yet, i have a very long way to go. but i’m not doing it the old way anymore.

i’ve started to eat healthy foods, my fridge is stocked with fruits and veggies and my pantry has almonds and wheat pasta. i do toning exercises everyday and i go on runs when i don’t have to work. i have never felt better or looked better in my life.

i feel a change, tumblr.

people in this community have started to realize that they don’t need to be mindfucked every time they eat a bagel. the cycle can keep going or it can end.

UGH! I hate how I looked in my 2010’s birthday =/

Me alegra que ya no tengo esa panza fea =]

So tonight I made some grilled tofu steak things, but I wasn’t going to eat them yet because the rest of dinner wasn’t done being made. (Others were grilling chicken, making salad etc), wellllllll, it was after 9pm when everything was done. I was *going to go for a run, because I didn’t earlier, but it was hot until past dark/I can’t jog past dark around here, blah blah, so I missed dinner.

Question is: It’s now almost 1am, and I can’t sleep. My stomach is killing me with hunger, and I don’t want to slow my metabolism, but I also don’t want to eat and then fall asleep in an hour, turning it straight to fat. I’m craving everything, and resisting, but I don’t know if maybe I should have a glass of milk? It has protein anyway. Or we have these little grapefruit-cups, but they’re 100 calories, and no protein.. Where milk at least has some protein, and we have a no-fat kind.

Blah blah blah I’m hungry and I want to eat so my metabolism doesn’t die, but I also don’t want to gorge. Help :c

im in europe so my days r a little screwed but ill be here tilp the 3rd (i get back either 3rd or 4th)

30ds

I did great today.  I went to WalMart and bought me a food scale so that I can actually weight out certain foods.  I watched this video on YouTube once that showed how using a measuring cup for some food is actuall wrong, and made a BIG difference. 

I only ate about 850 calories today, which isn’t good, but I woke up so late that breakfast and morning snack time were already passed.  I’m not down with the whole starvation thing, but I didn’t want to stuff my self the the calories I missed this morning.

I spent alot of time online today researching different diets and dieting techniques.  This whole starvation diet sounds ridiculous to me.  Going days at a time without eating is obviously unhealthy.  I can’t imagine how painful that may be. (But that’s just my opinion). 

Sometimes I wonder if i will successfully lose all this weight.  I know there are so many people that try dieting over and over and are unsuccessful, then there are a few that manage to get it off and keep it off.  This is the biggest obstacle that I think i’ve faced in my life… I’m not used to failing at anything, which is why i’m sure that I can do this. 

~DAY 2~  Menu

Lunch- Instant grits with 2 eggs - 225cals

Snack - Special K Strawberry Bar - 90cals

Dinner - Cabbage Soup - 119cals

Snack - 2 bagels with cream cheese and 1/2 grapefruit - 385

plan: 
-7:30 am: eat melon, banana, and yogurt 
-7:45 am: walk the dog
-9 am: run
-11 am: eat kale salad
-2 pm: workout with my bestie 
-3:30 pm: post workout protein shake
-5:30 pm: bootcamp (circuit training)
-7:30 pm: fro-yo with the ladies

sounds pretty good. 

I need to buy my own scale so I can know for sure how much I weigh. Using other people’s or random scales in random places doesn’t work, because it only gives me an idea of how much I weigh, since every scale is different. I used to fluctuate between 117 and 122. Now I’m 127, but this was done on a scale at an aquarium (yeah, I don’t know why there was a scale there) about a month ago. I wish I could just know for certain my own weight just by wanting to know.

now shower and sleeeeeeep
me so tired.
gotta babysit in the morning.

Today was pretty good, minus a few things it wasn’t all that bad.

But now I’m fucked. I didn’t stick with my diet at all today, I didn’t eat a shit load of food but the food I did eat was shit. I know I went over my calorie limit. I didn’t do my situps this morning because I was at sarah’s. I fucking hate my life. I was almost to lost eight pounds and now i probally gained a pound or two back.

Why is this so fucking hard?!

Most people by now could have lost like fifteen lbs, but no not me. And if I eat one fucking thing that’s bad for you it throws everything off.

I’m telling you if my mom’s right about me having a thyroid problem and when I go back there for that check up and I have to get more bloodwork done because I have a thyroid problem I’m going to have to shoot fucking someone. Why can’t they just give me medicine and get it over with?! They do it any other fucking time.

And fucking the whole lupus thing, that’s bullshit.

“Yeah.. so you’re blood paletes or however the fuck you spell them are low and your mom has been diagnosed with lupus for over 35 years now and everything and it’s completely genetic but instead of trying to stop it and prevent it now and fix it were just gonna wait a couple months and then see how you’re doing.”

YEAH FUCK OFF I HATE DOCTORS

I work nights, so I’m usually on a day sleeping schedule.

I have a few people to text during the day, but it kills me that everyone is asleep when I’m awake at 2 in the morning, starring at my fridge with lustful eyes.

also: done spamming you guys with text posts for now.

Gotta go work :c

Project Lose It- Day 3UPDATE: 

Hey guys, Day 3!  I think today could have went a whole lot better if my mom didn’t bring me Wendy’s for dinner.  But eh, I still worked out. 

The workout log:

60mins

270cals

Goal for today: 500cals

As you can see I didn’t get any where close to the goal.  But I blame my muscles.   They are really hurting right now and I almost think I need to take some muscle relaxer.  I guess they are just not used to it.  

But yes, I needed up doing 20mins this morning and just did a 40min walk.  I could have gone longer but my legs were killing me.  I was basically dragging myself. 

Anywho….

Food Log (rly bad today)

B: tbsp of peanut butter

L: Hot pocket and a Mt. Dew (yeah not the best lunch one should eat, but I’m sure I’ll burn it off today, and besides I WAS HUNGRY!) 

D: Wedney’s Chicken sandwich and Tea. 

Tomorrow’s goal: eat better

When I really try, I think I’m really pretty.

When I look at my best pictures, I imagine how gorgeous I’ll be when I lose the weight and I smile

Second day seemed quicker. I can feel the burn, though! Who has made it through the entire cycle? Let me know how it was!!

howthemightyfall replied to your post: i still have 11 lbs to lose. 2 down so far from my original 13 lbs to lose lol. you can d

Bad day, again.

Went to Oxford to say goodbye to friends as I’m leaving the country on Saturday. They insisted we go to a cafe and I tried to order the healthiest thing - a Tuscany panini (grilled veggies and mozzarella) with salad. Tried to take off some of the cheese but got a weird look from a friend, who was busy eating a chocolate sundae! Then after that they got some Greek treats and insisted I try some of this particular baclava. So I didn’t even calorie count today. Ugh.

My shoulders are sore. My left calve sort of hurts when I walk. But I’m losing weight.

My love handles have gone down, my stomach (upper and lower abs) are slowly going down (I can’t say that I’ve been eating 100 percent health, because then I’d be lying), and I’m getting excited. I honestly cannot wait for Level 2.

I think I might actually meet my goal weight by Christmas guys, and I wanted to reach it by my birthdays (which is in February). I. Cannot. Wait.

Wish me luck :) I love you all!

Okay, so technically it’s not the 22nd anymore since it’s after midnight, but oh well! Today marked the first day of my diet. I got the myfitnesspal app for my iphone and it’s got to be the best thing ever. It’s such an easy and accurate way to keep track of calorie intake and exercise, so I love it. I also got an ab workout app which is great as well and tomorrow I’ll be adding some more health/exercise related apps to my phone to keep things interesting. 

In order to lose 2 lbs a week, my daily calorie intake is supposed to be 1200 but I went out for dinner with a friend and my total for today ended up being 2025 calories. The good thing is that I burned 600 calories from my workout, so I only ended up being 225 calories over. 

I’m actually really excited about this because for the first time ever, I actually feel like I can do this and I will do this. I’m going to be healthy, I’m going to happy, and I’m going to be proud when all this is done. This is just the beginning, but I can’t wait to see the end results. 

Well it’s already 1:29 am, so I’m going to quickly create an exercise routine page for this blog, spend a little bit of time on my other blog, and hopefully get to sleep within the next hour. Good night, xo. 

I know i have a bunch of goals on my goal page, but this is just a random simple one.

First day of summer was the 21st of June, so I would like to lose 15 lbs by the first day of fall (Sept. 23rd)

I think it’s healthy and realistic and I would def be feeling great at that weight by the end of the summer. It isn’t my ultimate goal, but it’s a lot closer and since I know I am getting more confident every day that passes, I might be damn close to cocky at that point :)

Warning: Although this is still my goal and I will be working towards it, I am taking a very intense summer course in Human Anatomy and it’s pretty much going to be taking over my life, so i want to apologize beforehand of my infrequent visits or posts on Tumblr. However, I am sure that my digits will slip and my mouse will end up checking tumblr every few hours. Ugh, the obsession!

Waist is down 3 inches from when I started. Hips are down 4. Thigh is down at least 2. Makes Becca a happy bunny :) 

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This is people’s primary problem with dieting successfully. Dont expect to change yourself over night. Your fat burning metabolism will drop as soon as you start dieting if you try to change too suddenly and you’ll become demotivated from the get-go.

That’s awesome! Good job! I think my goal is a healthy and strong 135, so I have about 13-10 (depending on the day) pounds to loose. 

I’d LOVE to have done it before my 19th - but that is incredibly unlikely! I guess we will see…  

today i realized..

Breakfast:  100% liquid egg whites (75 calories), 1 cup spinach (7 calories), and 1/4 cup fat free shredded cheddar cheese (45 calories)

Lunch:  2 cups spinach (14 calories), 1/2 cup halves strawberries (24 calories), 1/2 cup chopped carrots (26 calories), 1/2 cup sliced cucumbers (8 calories), 12 Meal Starters chik’n strips (140 calories), 2 tbsp raspberry vinaigrette (60 calories)

Dinner:  Flour tortilla (218 calories), mixed vegetables (91 calories), 1/4 cup crumbled feta cheese (99 calories), 1 tbsp olive oil (119 calories), 1 tbsp vinegar (3 calories)

TOTAL:  Fat: 35.9  Carbs: 89.7  Prot: 66.9  Calories: 930

I was really bored watching Criminal minds so, suddenly, I started doing some lunges and now I am covered up in sweat!

Today is the first time I do 100 Jumping jacks in a row, I normally do them in two sets of 50, after doing those 100 I felt my calves burn like hell, but, DAAAAMN! it felt so freaking good! You know what? I’m going to do 100 more! wait…

and here’s that amazing feeling again! I’m Done!

This week I didn’t exercise that hard, want to know why? well, prepare yourself for a laaame excuse, it’s all beacuse I straightened my hair LOL, but seriously I don’t want to mess my hair :(

Anyway, I’m going to take a refreshing shower in a couple of minutes, then I’m going to read a bit of Harry potter and later I may go to sleep, or watch Castle haha.

Wow, this is quite long! Stay motivated guys? 

I have loss some weight (and am VERY grateful for this)… but I know I can, and SHOULD be losing more weight than I have.

It’s time to kick it up a few notches…..

Ugh… I feel horrible. I feel like I ate to much today, because I did, and now I’ve been rubbing my face for the last half and hour. I feel like it’s been gaining fat and I even feel like I can feel it growing on my face… God my face feels ugly right now, not to mention my stomach. I ate dinner around 6:00pm. It’s now about 9:50 and I feel that the same crap I ate is still sitting in there and just made me bigger. I even ran today as well as workout… I guess that didn’t help at all.

I hate this feeling… It’s either I eat something and feel like a fat ass all day or eat nothing and the constant bombardment of questions from my parents of “Did you eat today?” or “Why haven’t you eaten?” I hate having to deal with that… They should just leave me alone for once… God. “Mom, I have enough trouble with eating and who I am. Deciding if I’m going to regret the 15 carrots I’m going to eat for all of today… Stop asking me about it!”

I wish my life could give me a break for once. I wish I didn’t have to worry about what I eat or even worry that I’m going to regret it in the end. I wish I could tell when my body was full so I can eat a normal size meal and not binge when I do eat… I just want to be normal and not be fucked up all the time. Worrying about every little thing… If only wishes did come true.

I won’t be posting a detailed list of my intake, but I will say it was around 1100 calories. I came down with a flu-like sickness and won’t be working out for the next few days! Hopefully I feel better soon! 

On the bright side- I ombred my black extensions to a beautiful sandy blonde and they look fabo! I’m never getting my hair done at the salon again since this only costed me $10. Next, I’ll do my real hair. ;)

 and im down to 109.4 lbs! hell yea making progress!!! so stoked.

been working hard, eating healthy, and exercising at least some every day. w00t.

I normally eat a teeny tiny salad for lunch everyday, and barely pick at my dinner. But today I ate an entire sandwich (turkey, lettuce, pepperjack) and then half an apple, and I was so full I was sick the rest of the day.

When I got home my mom made chicken, brocolli, potatoes, and corn. I ate a little bit of everything and I felt so sick that I had to purge.

I haven’t in almost a week, so I was kind of upset with myself that I even ate it in the first place. 

I think I went on auto pilot eating because I had just ran 2miles. 

I feel so sick now, and my throat burns. But at least I’m empty.

Ive lost an entire pant size now, so I am incredibly happy. and I’m down to 105.  I just feel lonely right now.

I need to create a two hour workout routine for tomorrow morning so I don’t have to run into that dick of a weight training instructor. There’s a weight room that also includes treadmills and bikes, I’d rather not use em’ to be honest because there’s a beautiful track outside. Please help! 

that i am a total binger.

I ate pineapple and grapes for breakfast.. then when i got done with work i was STARVING.. and since we get food cheap at  the restuarant i worked at i ordered some food to go.. you want to know what i ordered… GOOSE CALLS..

Not from Wisconsin? Particularly Green Lake? Well goose calls are mozzeral cheese sticks wrapped in tortillas deep fried and then served with marinara sauce… i ate them ALL.. SEVEN of them… i wasnt even that hungry by the fourth one but i ate them any way… then i felt like shit, came home… ate a salad..went to the gym came home again ate some cheese and an apple and some peanuts.. hummm i neeeeeed to lose this weight…

Friday's Indulgences 6-3-11

Cuz by the end of this summer I wanna lose at least 3-5 more inches and 5-10 more pounds (since I gained 2 back :( ) so that when I start aerobics I can get super skinny :))) and imma keep retaking that class so I stay fit until i get a gym membership 

Tonight didn’t turn out as planned… but what good are making plans anyway, eh? 

Stats Update:

So only lost 1/2 a pound last week, but it’s cool, I haven’t been this light in, ummm, forever. This week is not going to be a losing weight kind of week either because a 4 day music festival is not really optimal conditions for a diet. I believe that on vacation you should be having fun and nothing else, this only happens once a year and I will not spend it freaking out over every little piece of food or drink. Yay!! Lots of last minute shopping and packing to do!! SO EXCITED!

General plan is:

I love this

Usually, I avoid going to blogs, looking at tagged posts and reblogs- of people that are losing weight the unhealthy way. It just makes me ache a little bit, knowing the damage they are doing to their bodies and their minds, and the possibility that they are leading themselves into an eating disorder, and that sometimes- nothing I say will make a difference.
But the thing is, not all these blogs know that what they’re doing is so bad for them, they don’t recognize the true danger that they are putting themselves into. Maybe they have turned a blind eye because they are desperate for a change that will ‘make them feel better for once’, which of course we know does not happen. Maybe they were influenced by other unhealthy blogs and sources and think that it actually works.
But the thing is. It doesn’t. It only twists the mind into greater frustration, pain and sometimes, depression. It puts a great risk of anorexia, bulumia or ednos. It puts the body into starvation, into deprivation and possibly hospitalization.

So what I am suggesting today, is that if you see something, say something. If you see a blog that is doing these hurtful thing to their bodies and minds under the assumption that it will make them happier-send them a message. Send them kindness. Even one kind word can change someone’s day. Send them the facts of nutrition of self esteem. Be informative but respectful. This is NOT a contest of ‘who is better’ or ‘showing off’ healthy lifestyles, but an attempt to spread the knowledge that happiness and acceptance comes from within- not from getting thin.
Lets spread awareness. Lets help put out a little of the fire that is unhealthy weight loss and negative self talk.

Already feeling better about things, even felt slinkier this morning. I’d forgot to weigh myself yesterday so I’ve managed to do it on my own [duff] scales. Not happy with what was staring back at me, but I’m well and truly on it now so fingers crossed next week there will be a change.

Bit of a ‘grab what I can’ day today unfortunately.

Breakfast:

2 wholemeal toast (400g loaf) 2 laughing cow light triangles.

Lunch:

2 wholemeal bread (400g) 28g cheddar. Baby sweetcorn, 1 activia fat free vanilla yog.

Tea:

Jacket Potato (or SW chips) 2 x Quorn Burgers (1 syn) marrowfat peas (or pasta n’ sauce)

Syns:

2 x Quorn Burger = 1

1 tsp Butter = 2

Options Caramel Hot Choc = 2

Tesco apple cereal bar (140 kcal) = 3.5 syns (over estimate)

No gym tonight since I’m nearly sick with nerves about my driving test tomorrow. If I pass I’ll drive myself to the gym in celebration and if I fail again I’ll walk myself there and back as punishment.

BREAKFAST
Muesli with non-fat milk and dried cranberries, coffee (non-fat with 1 sugar).
= 306 calories.

LUNCH
Ham and low fat cheese on a multigrain roll, rhubarb yoghurt.
= 398 calories.

DINNER
Grilled chicken burger with salad and a tiny bit of mayo.
= 232 calories.

SNACKS
Fibre bar, apple pieces drizzled with vanilla custard.
= 249 calories.

TOTAL
= 1186 calories.

EXERCISE
None.

I really wanted something sweet after dinner but I’m out of yoghurt so I was naughty and used custard instead… Yum!

This is my weight loss blog. My current weight is 200 pounds and I wear a size 13 pant and XL top. In 5 years I went from a size 6 to a size 13. I use to wonder how I managed to gain so much weight in five years. I am 20 years old and should be at an age were I can eat what ever I want but instead I am worrying about how I’m going to lose weight. Well let me tell you how in 5 years I went up about 7 pant sizes.

1. I stopped eating a mainly veggie and fruit diet.
2. I stopped going to the gym.
3. I got involved with a controlling boy for 5 years and devoted all my time to him.
4. I ate out of depression.

I’m sure most of you know that mood and weight go hand in hand. Self -esteem and weight go hand and hand too. Those 5 years I spent with boy totally screwed up my self esteem. He would constantly compare me to other girls and tell me how ugly, fat and worthless I was. He wouldn’t let me have time for myself. I also feel that a part of my weight gain was to make myself sexually unappealing to him. I would hate it when he touched me and how even when I’d tell him to stop he’d keep going. 

Now, I don’t want to scare anyone away because they think this blog will be a downer. I want this blog to be more about my journey in reclaiming my life. I mean after 5 years in the dark I want to take back my health! I want to do things I enjoy again! I want to wear clothes I like! I want to watch movies I love! I just want to be me again. 

Oh, before I forget here are some extra things  about my blog I want to address:

• I picked Jasmine as my profile picture because when I was thin that’s the Disney princess I got compared to the most. 
• I will post my weight once a week.
• I’ll do my best to keep you informed of what I ate and what exercises I did.
• Since I am also reclaiming my life I’ll share little things that I started doing again that I loved but haven’t done in a long time.
• I will never reveal my identity. (maybe after I reach my goal weight :p)

Be not afraid of growing slowly; be afraid only of standing still.
Chinese Proverb

Thanks for reading me!

Anonymous Girl

Even though I’m trying to lose weight & get fit.. I still love my body right now.  It’s full of lots of womanly curves… and I look hot naked.  This is a decision for ME though.  Even though I like how I look now, I’d rather be super tiny & healthy.

Whether you need to lose some weight or just want to maintain or even improve your fitness level, try this exercise routine: walk at your top speed for 5 minutes, then jump rope for 1 minute, keep switching between walking and jumping rope for a total of 30 minutes.

Aim for three walking/jumping sessions three times a week for two weeks.

Because it always works out better that way. :P I’m waking up at 7 for my workouts, and I plan to be done by 11 to noon. Then I have all afternoon to relax until I need to go over to my little brother’s to babysit. No more eating after 5. Totally sick of it. 

There’s nothing healthy in this house either. So this is what I came up with for tomorrow.

Breakfast

• Huge bowl of oatmeal - 300cal.
• Apple - 77cal.

Lunch

• Bowl of Tuna and bread off to the side - 340cal.

Dinner

• ..Spaghetti O’s - 340cal.
• Green Beans - 40cal.

Total: 1097 cal / 14.25g fat / 2 sat / 26g fiber / 54g protein

(The only bad thing about today will be the sodium intake due to the Spaghetti O’s.) 

I’m craving some fresh produce, which there is none in this house. The family I’m staying with… their eating habits are definitely different than mine. Too bad I don’t have any money for food until next month. :x Oh well. I’m happy I was able to actually find some combination for tomorrow that’ll give me a lot of fiber, low fat, and high protein, and all for under 1200cals while staying over 1000. I probably won’t have that great of luck on Wednesday. Sigh. Probably will end up doing nothing/eating nothing since I won’t be home. :| Gah. At least I’ll be playing Dance Central and DDR…? :D 

I love this

29. Goals for the next 30 days.

I absolutely love seeing pictures of before and afters (or durings). It is refreshing to see REAL people accomplish their weight loss goals. Seeing other people succeed gives me strength and motivation. It also makes me genuinely happy. =)

Can’t wait to have my own before and after.

Diet pizza! Kind of weird, but it was good! Haha.

• 90 Calorie Flatout Wrap
• Broccoli
• SmartDog Vegetarian Hot Dog
• Banana Peppers
• Ragu Sauce
• Kraft fat free Mozzarella
• Reduced fat Feta

315 calories. 33g carbs. 5g fat. 40g protein.

I’m loosing weight like a champ 

So my goal of not eating fast food has failed. It’s hard to avoid it when you work and don’t feel like cooking…ever.

I’ve been slacking on working out too. I’ve been either busy and/or tired. I have a bad feeling I will not meet my weight loss goal for this month.

A pair of vegan Toms will be my reward when I weigh 199 lbs. 20 lbs to go :)

Pounds: 150 149 148 147 146 145 144 143 142 141 140 139 138 137 136 G1(135) 134 133 132 131 G2(130) 129 128 127 126 maybe someday (125)

Kilos: 68 67 66 65 64 63 62 61 60 59

WOW!!! I really can’t remember the last time I hit under 140 without it shooting back up to 140 in a day!!! This time it’s gong to keep coming off because it’s a lifestyle change and I’m determined to be the best me  I can be! :

(?)

A loss of 0.5lbs in a week! What the fuck? 
I’m eating like 900cals max now but I’m exercising double (i burn over 1000cals a day now) so…
Mabie my body isn’t used to it yet?

Should I weigh myself again on Sunday or something? :s
Am I plateau-ing? :s  

About the shakes, I just want to make something clear to those who complain about my desicions. I drink them for the nutrition and protein, YES, but mostly I just drink them because 1) I don’t have to think about what to eat when I get hungry and 2) I won’t binge on loads of stuff at the dinner table, I’ll have my shake and know just how many calories I had.

I have never had a good relationship to food, it’s all in or nothing. So in order to keep my eating and anxiety under control, I drink shakes. No worries. So this is not so much about the nutrition. That is all. xx

Just weighed myself.

128.6

5 days ago I was 126.6.

I haven’t eaten more than 1400 calories a day and worked out every. single. day.

What the FUCK! That must ALL be water because there’s no way I’ve eaten 7000 extra calories in 5 days! I know it won’t all be fat but seeing a gain and everything, it’s still pretty disheartening.

Grumpy.

Might as well do this before I go to sleep.

It’s down to the last two questions and boy, are they boring! I will have to start another challenge after this is over, one that touches on some hard-hitting subjects. I like answering good questions.

Anyway.

Well, I haven’t really thought about what I want to accomplish over the next 30 days. Actually, I do know one thing. I want to lose more weight and maintain a healthy diet. I guess that’s two things, but whatever. But yes, I am doing well. I have been at 170 for the past couple days. I feel like I’m stuck, but I’m trying not to get discouraged.

I just saw that, for my height of 5’2”, my ideal weight would be 125lbs. I’ll shoot for that (NOT within 30 days, that’s just absurd) and see if it makes me happy. To be honest, 169 would make me happy right about now. Just get me out of the 170s! I think I can lose three to four pounds in a week, so I’ll shoot for a loss of around 15 for the month. Sounds good!

Oh! Within the next 30 days, I will be going on vacation! So, another goal is to have a good, restful, fun vacation.

Since it is summer vacation and since I am a college graduate, I don’t feel obligated to make too many goals for the next month. I do have one more: to make some progress on my search for a REAL career.

1. Lose more weight.
2. Maintain healthy diet.
3. Have a great vacation.
4. Make progress in career search.

There you have it.

One more day of this challenge! 

Do Easy Tone/ Shape- up Shoes work?

I really think all it will ever come down to is self-control

of course once you get an addiction to sugar you need a greater amount of self control

but how bad do you want it? once you reach your weight loss goal or are happy with your body will you give in?

weight: 172.2 pounds

today i woke up, took my adderall, and suddenly had a huge intense craving for icing, and if there’s anything i don’t buy, it’s icing. so i made it. it tasted pretty bad. i had about three teaspoons before i got sick of it and down the drain it went.

i saw a bag of trader joe’s vegan fried rice in the freezer. i had an urge to make it, so i did. i added an egg and broccoli to it. i ate a few bites while cooking it, it’s pretty good, but i decided not to eat it.

around 3:00 i had a bag of sour octopus, totaling 300 calories.

for dinner i had a half sandwich with corned beef and cole slaw. i’ll finish it in a little bit with a big glass of water.

i’m going to estimate my caloric intake today at about 900 calories.

ugh, me.. i don’t look like this pictures lie. i am much larger, but this is me currently

Im still new to tumblr, but i feel like im slowly starting to get the hang of it. Today was EXHAUSTING. summer camp was really brutal I dont know why but whenever im the leader of the group of 12 year olds they NEVER want to listen. and they think they know everything. Its slightly draining, but the great thing is they are great at games so playing with them is fun. Second day of bootcamp was great. I hate getting up but theres something so beautiful about working out with the dawn.

Intake:

B: half a banana, and low fat granola with vanilla fat free yogurt-205

L:smoked turkey with cheese on 45 cal bread-250, strawberrys-35.clementine-45, pop chips-100

S: 130,70 drink

D: Salad with fat free balsemic vinegrette on side-230, grilled chicken -300

S:bread white butter ( i know) 200

Total:1565

im trying to keep it to 1200, but I ate pretty healthy so i think it will work out

Outtake:

1 hour of knock out basketball ( we play a version were your running) 1/2 of badmitton

1 hour of boot camp.

When I was a kid, I wasn’t overweight. I ran. I played soccer. I played basketball. I played football in the front yard with my big brother. I was long and lean and lanky; my mom had the hardest time finding pants that fit my waist and were long enough to cover my ankles.

Then junior high happened and puberty happened. I naively gave people my confidence and self-esteem, and they beat it to a pulp. So I stopped exercising and started eating, hidden away from the world.

And now, years later as I crawl out from under wreckage, I am overweight. I am obese.

I want to run again.

I can remember how it felt. How much I loved it. How much I—only in hindsight—wish I had never stopped running when I was thirteen. I loved how you could run and forget everything except for your breathing and the way your muscles felt as they moved. I loved seeing how far I could push myself through the fatigue before finally calling it quits. I love how accomplished I felt after every lap, every mile.

Running creeps into my dreams at night. Running slips into my daydreams. Running comes as a passing thought continually throughout the day.

And now, one of my best friends—who is slightly overweight—has come to me talking about running and how much she wants to try it because the people who do it love it, and how, if I was interested, maybe we could try running together.

Running has officially become almost everything I think about.

I perused the internet earlier this evening for tips on how to start running as someone overweight, and I stumbled across the C25K plan. I like the C25K plan. It’s incremental. It’s manageable. You can take it at your own pace. And, if anything, it will at least get me off of the couch and out of my self pity.

me today, before tanning. i hate my legs.

one on left is 180, one on right 160


left 160 right 180


left 160, right 180

yesterday:

• nutrigrain bar - 140
• apple chips - 40
• water
• 1 cup strawberries - 50
• 1 cup collard greens - 50
• 1 slice pizza - 150
• fiber one bar - 140
• 2 avocado roll - 180
• salmon roll - 120
• 3 oz salmon - 150
• 1 cup green beans - 40
• shrimp - 80
• water
• 2 veggie straw bags - 260

total = 1350

My mother is supporting my life style change and buying me these babies so I can start C25K with real running shoes (since I don’t own any). What a woman! I’m telling you guys my mom is greattt.

Ps. Can we talk about how much I like these shoes?

okay so were all on this journey to weight loss and we’ve all seen the shape-ups and easy tone commercials for the shoes and clothes and i was wondering if they really work? cause i would love to use them when you know im taking a hike or when im on the go and dont have time to work out. any one else wonder too? HELP! 

Today I was forced a glass of milk and a bowl of chicken...

HUAR

40 minutes of KILLER circuit training and. 25 minute walk home.

I feel great :)

Wow, I’ve had an “official” blogging schedule for about two weeks now and...

Went out for dinner last night, it was pretty bad. Basically had Chinese, I ordered Sizzling Japanese Tofu and steamed rice so I wouldn’t be eating the fried stuff, but the tofu looked fried and less healthy than I’ve had before and I ended up eating a lot of that.. I might have over estimated my calories but I’d rather over estimate than under estimate. Then I got home and had a huge shaker filled with milo mixed with milk along with 4 coconut/krispie biscuits. It was naughty but I’d exercised and eaten not too badly throughout the day so I guess I can justify it that way.

I’m going to make that my cheat meals/night for the week and make sure I’m well behaved on Saturday and Sunday, I’m back up to 59kg on the scales (who knows if that’s right though because the mornings have been so cold that I’ve been weighing myself fully clothed, but it’s still a much higher number than I want to see) so that’s a little disheartening, but I’ve just gotta keep at it.

I want to do this badly.

I figured all of us on here who are on WW should have a directory so we can talk to other people who are on the same weight loss journey as us for advice, tips and/or recipes!

The directory is organized by height so reblog this or send me a message with your height and please have it stated somewhere on your blog that you’re on weight watchers. =]

All WW blogs follow me!  http://shesshrinking.tumblr.com/

Heading to the gym with my sister for some intervals (I invent them as I go) on the elliptical!

Hope you’re all having a great (healthy) day!

1/2 an apple and a cup of my smoothie.

Everyone, I have bad news :( My parents threw out all of how mandarins so now I can’t use them for smoothies u.u

I think my day is completely done; no more food intake today!

Now let’s see my goals

Goal #1 and #2: in all honesty, I feel like I am getting worse :( :S Like I try and see change, but today my mirror is not liking me. Maybe if I tried on a pair or shorts? I don’t know. At least I could wear my capris with shorts under. And when I went to the gym I sweated a LOT. Woot!

Goal #3: my mom’s tortilla had some roast beef in it (left overs, lol) But that’s about it. We watched Food, Inc. in class today and I think that I am slowly turning away from meat… 

Goal #4: I had LOTS of fruits today! All of them in one smoothie :) plus the 1/5 apple I ate for dinner. Oh, and my tomatoes :)

Goal #5: I went to the cookie counter today while I was eating my apple. I stopped myself. I said I wasn’t going to be happy after eating a cookie, so I shouldn’t even try and reach for one!

Goal #6: As I told you before, I left half of my tortilla back in the pan and replaced it with more tomatoes. Also, I only had THREE chocolate covered almonds, compared to the SEVEN I usually like to have :)

Goal #7: Went to the gym for 45 minutes and burned 300+ calories :) Then, I did the 40 jumping jacks for my followers AND the 30 day shred. 

Goal #8: Help me on this. I still can’t accept myself u.u

gogo!

Today I was forced a glass of milk and a bowl of chicken meatballs, noodles, and spinach. At least it’s healthy..

Time to work off the calories.

INTAKE Wednesday June 15

veggie straws (160)

skittles (35)

1 slice tomato/basil/mozzarella pizza (400 to be safe)

total: 595 kcal

weight: 113.8

i honestly didn’t even want the pizza, but my friend practically begged me to go out to lunch, and i don’t want to start seeming suspicious.

escaped dinner with them by “going back to my own apartment to eat” (which is upstairs).  so the day was halfway successful. great.

Had a footlong subway veggie delight today. My trick here was to...

Had a footlong subway veggie delight today. My trick here was to bring along my own cheese and reduced fat mayo, the cheese was only 50 calories and the mayo is only 15 per tablespoon! Much better than the 90+ if you use their mayo!!

Could have done a bit better probably but I stopped eating by 10:45 tonight which is good for me. I don’t over eat at night but I’d prefer to eat more during the day so that I’m not eating as much at night. I want my body to have as much digestion/ processing time before my morning weigh in as possible!

The splenda with fiber was great on raspberries though! I’m going to start using it to top more items! =] I’m making raspberry wheat chocolate scones tomorrow so I’ll try adding it to the tops of them before I bake it! (I’m in such a raspberry mood!)

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