JY's Lean P90X workout day 6!

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So excited! I don't think I'll be buying that much equipment but I WANT TO HANG UPSIDEDOWN TOOOOOO!!!!

I’m somewhere between 5’4” and 5’4.5”, and yeah, I guess I’m happy with it. I’d like to be a little shorter (only certainly not this weight and shorter!). I’ve always like being short-ish :)

I know its super chemically and bad for me… but its my favorite little diet cheat right now :)

Day Three - A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?

I’m not really into the whole “thinspo” thing, but I guess this would be my ideal realistic body. I’ll never have hips and a little waist, nor will I ever have a large chest, and that is a-okay with me. 

I’d say that these girls are “normal” skinny (though the one on the far right seems to be pushing it a little). I’m not trying to look emaciated..just smaller than I do now! I’m not far from this, but certainly not there yet.

fuck being sick. fuck new teeth growing in. fuck braces and getting them tightened. 

i’ve lost 9 pounds. i havent had solid food since thursday and i can barely take down liquids. my gums are swollen and bleed every time i brush my teeth and my entire mouth is in a lot of fucking pain. to top it all off i have my period.

i never cry, but because of the pain, i’ve cried every single day since thursday sometimes more than once. fuck.

I fear that I won’t be able to keep it off. No one in my family (blood relation) is overweight to the point that they would be called “fat,” but no one in my family (except for maybe my dad) has the same passion for food as I do. I can out-eat every boy I know, and even my dad at times! And I always go for the unhealthy things. Sometimes I just want to say, “Forget weight loss. I’ll just eat however much I want and be whatever weight I wanna be!” But I know I wouldn’t be happy if I was heavier. Definitely trying to readjust my relationship with food during this challenge!

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Phase 1: 4 weeks 

Week 1: 

Monday: Core Synergistics

Tuesday: Cardio X

Wednesday: Shoulder & Arms, AB Ripper X

Thursday: Yoga X

Sunday: Rest 

Monday: Cardio X

Tuesday: Yoga X

WEEK ONE IS OVER! 

And I am getting back on track with my nuitritions too! 
I am beginning to trust myself with food again. Tomorrow, I will start again on track with Shoulder & Arms, Ab Ripper X. =D

Week 2 tomorrow! 

My first day back at the gym, IM PUMPED. :D

And if I accidentally shout‘fuck you’ don’t take it personally. I just hate you.

I started the beginner course today on the wii,

It was just a 20 minute work-out but I actually felt like it was doing something and that it could be something I could very well keep up if I get up early enough on a morning before I go to my boyfriends house.

It kind of works your brain as well as your body which is good, having to think about what you are doing etc. but I really enjoyed it :)

Now I dont really have weight to lose per say… but I do need to tone and I do think that this will work!

Super happy :)

Good morning Monday! Yesterday it was too hard to plan my meals because I was eating with family and didn’t know what I was going to eat or when or how much. But today I am back on track and planning all of my meals and snacks. 

I’m kicking off the week like I usually do, with an egg-white omelette and some good coffee. I seem to need something sweet at the end of each meal so I’m trying to always have strawberries on hand  and have one of those instead of something naughty! 

My Omelette: 

• 1/3 c egg white
• 1/4 c tomato
• 1/4 c chopped bell pepper
• 1 tbsp chopped onion 
• 1/8 c kidney beans
• 1/4 c fat-free cottage cheese
• ketchup
• 1 tsp nutritional yeast flakes
• salt + pepper

So satisfying, and under 200 kcals! Sometimes I add a slice of vegetarian bacon chopped up. 

Well. Fell of the wagon again. When did weightloss get this hard? I don’t remember it being this hard. My downfall this time? Homemade birthday cake and beer. And two free work dinners with set menus in one week. 

My problem is. If it’s there, I can’t stop myself. I properly can’t. It’s compulsive. If there is food/drink on the table in front of me I get occupied by a latent spirit that shoves the unhealthy goodness into my open and waiting mouth. 

But, I started this fine Monday morning with a big bowl of porridge and a banana and i’m feeling good. I moved house this weekend (again, sigh) and I think the new conditions are good for weightloss. For the last month I was living with my best friend in a very “share and share alike” situation. She’d make dinner and leave me some. She’d buy some sweets and offer me some and tell me to help myself. I’d come home and she’d have a huge, delicious meal waiting for me. And it was all so lovely but not good for weightloss. The new apartment is with strangers, Italians, and I doubt very much it’s going to be the same help yourself vibe (at least I hope not). So hopefully this will be good for my language skills and my body. 

Oh, by the way, I didn’t move houses for weight loss (in case it seemed that way). Her father is working in America for the summer and her mum was over there with him, so I was keeping her company in the empty house. But, her mum doesn’t like the place so she’s coming back early. No more chill time with the best friend and no more free rent = sad face. 

Hope you’re all doing well. I assure you even though i’m not posting as much I am trying my best to keep up with all your blogs. 

xx

If I want to get out of it completely (meaning, if I want to leave the gym), I have to write a letter stating so and hand it in at the beginning of July. 

All things considered, I go to a really good gym—but I think it’s time I check out some new ones. 

This week, I will go gym-hopping! Ha! 

Basically, I will check out some gyms in my town, maybe a couple in the next town over (where my aunt lives) and see what’s up. 

I’ve heard of some really good gyms with better rates than the one I go to (it costs me about $50 a month and I’ve heard of a few other good ones that cost about half of that) and since my college’s fees sort of went up this year, I think I am gonna have to go check out some new gyms regardless of if I want to or not (which I sort of want to, anyway). 

In the end, a gym is a gym, so… Guess we’ll see how that goes! 

Wish me luck in my search! :) 

I loved my vacation but in the end it was really hard to keep all my healthy habits up. We ate out more, etc.

And I weighed in today I was 93,1kg. 2 kilos gained.. :D

BUT! I swear I look skinnier than 3 weeks ago, even though the gain! :)

And now I can back to my healthy life again. Plus working out!! Though I hurt my ankle in the plane yesterday so I have to take it easy for a while.

Anyways I’m back.

thats right i have booyah :) very happy - still got a long way to go but definately getting there!

Cravings for food

whilst in too much pain to work out :’(

Who would have ever thought 8 days would be so hard?! I took yesterday off from 30DS and came back to level 2 today. OMFG—That bitch is crazy. I was yelling all sorts of curse words at the tv this morning. Poor neighbors. lol Ok so I couldn’t do like any of the moves. Its different from level 2 because she doesn’t actually show you what your doing first…you just do it. It took me a few reps to actually grasp the motion of the move. I HATE the fact that most of the strength is combined with cardio! As a result I found myself stopping and panting and not even making the full range of movement. Thats what I get for not starting out with a cup of coffee right? Oh and I HATE HATE HATE HATE lunges and plank. I always change the moves to a squat or bicycle crunches and this whole level is based around plank. 

I ended up cheating yesterday. I had left over mexican which I don’t think was too terrible. It was an enchilada filled with re-fried beans and beef. lettuce on top and a dab of sour cream. The kicker was dustin brought home an entire box of mrs. fields cookies…and i ate 3 of the damn things. like 18g of carbs and 200 cal a piece! We had a veggie kashi pizza and a big garden salad for dinner…I ate too much of that pizza but it only ended up being about 40 carbs total with the salad. I’m under on carbs but over on calories.I was just SO hungry yesterday…idk why??

I MUST get back into the game today! I put the cookies in his car lol I wont be tempted if I don’t see them. I’m trying to decide what to pack for lunch, gotta stop and get more lettuce again. I was considering a sandwich with a veggie platter—no dressing—like cucumbers, green peppers, and some carrots. Tonight will probably be left over chicken and asparagus with steamed cauliflower and carrots (its a steam fresh bag). Ive noticed that were tag teaming dinner now…He does the meat and I do the veggies, at least until he learns what I’m suppose to eat proportion wise.

Still no major side effects from spiro, other then my IBS is flaring up but honestly thats because of my stress level. When I’m REALLY stressed it gets awful…so I’m trying to chill out. I’m doing homework all this week…and exercising. This weekend I can relax a little—4th of July weekend and all. I get the 4th off paid so I think I’m gonna save that day off paid for the beach…I can always use extra cash. lol

Well thats it for today. Happy Monday and exercising to all my tumblrs.

Ps. the only way I can figure out how to enable comments is a question…so there?

My first day back at the gym, IM PUMPED. :D

Parents..

After saying countless times that I am going to start something, I’ve decided tomorrow will be the most ideal day to do it. Yes a Saturday- weird I know right, an odd day to start a workout regime, a new life philosophy, and being a whole new person? Well yes I agree. But I decided that Saturday…tomorrow, is perfect. Two days before work starts and it will get me pumped. A few days before vacation, and it will allow me to stay on track while I am soaking up the rays in Aruba- and running on the beach there. It will give me precisely 8 weeks before going back to school, that is two months. Two months to change my life with a few tweaks here and there. Two months before I begin an intense Master’s program, and make a new life for myself, hopefully with a job on the side. Two months. I can do it. Motivation and determination baby.  I got this. 

Dinner!

Turkey burgers, side of guac, and green beans - 8 pointsplus

So today was interesting, I wen’t out for a jog this morning, just casually moving along ya know how we do. Anyways I got to the end of my road turned right, and low and behold, a grizzly bear is staring at me from 20 yards away. I sware, in that one moment I almost pissed myself. I had to think what I was taught in elementry school. my mental process went a little like “ok not stop, drop and roll. Don’t stand tall, and don’t run.” obviously I wanted to run so much but I sped walked down a side street and when I was out of the sight of the bear, I don’t think I’ve ever ran that fast in my entire life. scariest thing ever! unfortunately I only got half a mile in. good news is I found out I can run half a mile straight… with the right motivation.

Me…. April ‘09 and June ‘11 (last weekend, to be exact.  Posted a few days ago to my other (random/personal) tumblr as well.

So I guess I lost weight in my hands too….? Sounds wierd, but this ring used to not go past my second knuckle, and now its too big? Hey, I’ll take it!

Ignore the fact that my nails aren’t painted, I’m doing them RIGHT NOW.

Day 9 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Let’s recall a few.

“Hey Brittany, did you put on some weight or is that a tire under your shirt?”

-some dick from high school

“Wow, you’re looking a bit pudgy, maybe you should skip the fettucini tonight.”

-Grandma

“Once you lose weight, you’re going to be so pretty!”

-ex-friend

“You’re fat so you’re ugly!”

-sister’s friend (age 6)

“Get away from me, fat whale”

-Max from middle school

the list goes on. 

Day 09 of 30DS: 

I STILL can’t do all of it. I feel like a loser. I can’t do all those push-ups, I just can’t do it yet. I fucking hate moving on in a routine before I can do 100% of it, but I can’t hold myself back. :[ Anyone else have this problem?

Tonight was the second night that I did Zumba! This exercise didn’t seem as difficult to do, but maybe that’s how Zumba works? Or maybe I’m just awesome and I’m getting more endurance? Haha. Who knows.

I know in a post earlier, I said no cake for me tonight for my mom’s birthday, and well, I kept that promise, but I did delve into some brownies & ice cream that we had. Blah. I was glad to Zumba at least a piece of that off right away.

For now I’ve been doing the 20 minute workout classes, but maybe I’ll eventually step it up to the 40 minute classes. I can see that being quite a workout. We’ll see. I do feel better for having done it again tonight, though! It really is fun!

I don’t know how to get my mom to become healthy with me. I’m so terrified that she’s going to die from a stroke or heart attack. Not just because she doesn’t eat right. She doesn’t even have a whole lot of weight to lose. She’s beautiful. But she smokes. She’s stressed out. She’s a bad insomniac. & she barely eats at all. She snacks more than she eats regular food, but for breakfast & lunch she’s rarely hungry. The other day, I made her breakfast without asking her, just so she would have to eat something. & then I packed her lunch. I’ve asked her to please stop smoking around me because I have asthma & I’m allergic to cigarette smoke. She doesn’t smoke in the house at all anymore. She finally quit doing that when every time she’d light up, I’d run into the room thinking there was a fire somewhere. But she still smokes in the car. I’m trying to get her quit doing that too, but she won’t listen. I just wish she’d quit. I bought her a book last year to help to quit. She read it, but apparently it didn’t help. /: If anything were to happen to her, I’d have no one. Although we argue sometimes, I love her to death (no pun intended) & want her to be around for a really long time. Blauuhh! Help!

Also, no exercise for me tonight. I guess tonight will be my rest night. I’ll exercise sometime tomorrow since Mom will be here to help with the yard sale. 
Weigh in is Monday. I hope I’ve lost at least one pound. I’d be happy with 2 or 3 pounds for sure though! Haha. I’ve been eating lots of fruit. It’s my favorite. Especially in the summer. I don’t think there’s a fruit that I don’t like…out of the ones I’ve tasted anyway. I need to try more veggies now. I keep trying tomatoes, & I just don’t like them. But I want to like them so bad! I’m starting to like cucumber a little bit. It’s just an odd taste. It freaks my taste buds out! I like lettuce. I like spinach. I need to try some celery again. I love green beans. Clearly I’m picky with my veggies. That’s one reason it’s been so hard for me to lose weight. I never knew how to eat right…I never likes vegetables. So now I just keep trying to make myself like them. Hopefully it will work!
I wish I could like fish too. /: I like chicken. Boneless, skinless chicken. It’s my favorite. That’s enough about foods that I like!

Oh! I watched Blue Valentine tonight. I think that’s what it’s called. It broke my heart & made me really sad! I hate when movies do that to me! I hated the ending. But I love Ryan Gosling. He’s beautiful.  

Now I’m sitting in bed listening to Ryan Bingham. Yay! (:

Sweet dreams.

xo
T 

PS: Don’t feel like proofreading..sorry for any grammatical errors. Haha! 

Breakfast

• Honey Bunches of Oats w/2% milk= 163

Lunch

• Tossed salad with vinegar= 65

Snacks

• 1/2 cup Apple crisp= 150
• Mango= 135
• 1 slice of vanilla cake no icing= 350-ish

Dinner

• 1 slice of Sam’s Club pepperoni pizza= 380

Total: 1243

Exercise

• Elliptical 50 min= 675
• 1/2 hour walk= 155
• Bicep curls
• Overhead tricep extensions

Total Burned: 830

It would have been a better day food wise if my mom hadn’t come home from work with cake that she got during an employee birthday party :P But we finished the leftover pizza in the fridge so I won’t be eating too much of that anymore either :)

They are making potato salad and fried chicken… I have nothing else to eat… :( it’ll be yummy but I’ll exercise tonight just in case… I don’t know :(

can’t wait to get these when I get to my ugw. bullhead...

I know I don’t usually post “weight-loss” stuff like this, but bear with me.

I know a lot of people on tumblr are trying to lose weight to fit into clothes.

Your motivation is a really tight dress or a tiny pair of shorts.

While that’s nice and all, I highly encourage you to be careful. I’m not saying that all diets turn into eating disorders, but those that do develop into something more serious, it doesn’t end well.

Because honestly? It gets to a point where clothes don’t fit, and not in a good way.

The shorts in that picture are a size 00.

They don’t fit.

Because I ruined my body with nearly 4 years of malnutrition and starvation.

And that’s not pretty or dainty or sexy.

Looking like a child isn’t a good thing.

You don’t want the body of an 11 year old boy. 

Cause I actually have the body of an 11 year old. Not to be crude or anything, but I have no boobs, and no hips. And that really isn’t something to strive for. 

If you’re going to diet because you are overweight, and it is badly effecting your health, than please, go for it.

But don’t diet to get rid of curves. Because looking like a kid isn’t attractive.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to insult people who are naturally petite.

I’m just trying to discourage girls who are trying to lose weight in often unhealthy ways in an effort to fit into tiny clothes and have a small ‘dainty’ body.

Yeah, I know it’s cliche and way overused, but looking like a grownup woman with an actual body is a good thing. Love who you are. Don’t try to starve yourself smaller.

Please.

Thats what I’m telling myself- no new clothes till I’m 200 or less. I’m hoping that I can get down to this within the next 2 weeks! It’s SO hard for me to not go shopping- but I know that if I hold out I will be able to buy smaller sizes and shopping will be twice as rewarding! 

10 pounds to go! Wish me luck!

Much love!

Hi! I’m 23 years old and used to weigh 130lbs… after lots of life changes and poor diet choices I have gained over 40lbs in under 3 years. It is very embarrassing and painful but I blame no one but myself. I love to eat and I use food to fill me up when I am having any feelings that I don’t want to deal with such as: boredom…FOOD!, stress…FOOD!, loneliness…FOOD! This behavior has got to stop.

**Motivators**

I have family coming into town the weekend of July 8th, 2011 who are very critical. This diet is not for them but the kickstart of that weekend looming over me is going to be fuel for the fire.

I am also in my first wedding (other than being a flower girl) next May as a bridesmaid and am very excited about it. This is also a huge motivation for me to lose weight.

I understand that some people reading this may think this is an unhealthy amount of weight to lose in such a short period of time but I don’t care. I plan on using this blog to document my successes (and shortfalls) while holding myself accountable to my plan and hopefully have a little fun with it!

-A.

this before pic embarasses me so much.. but at the same time comparing these two motivates me so much to keep going and never give up. & never let myself look that way again..

5’9, from 185 to 157, lost 28 lbs

a total of 39 pounds down, 10-15 more to go! 

i got this!!! :)

WEIGHT LOG:

Starting Weight: 189.0 (Since the first day of my diet; I was 194.8 a week earlier)

Week 1: 184.4

Week 2: 181.4

Week 3: 179.8

Goal Weight: 135.0

can’t wait to get these when I get to my ugw. bullhead hermosa super skinnies. mmm.

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Friday's Indulgences 6-3-11

Cuz by the end of this summer I wanna lose at least 3-5 more inches and 5-10 more pounds (since I gained 2 back :( ) so that when I start aerobics I can get super skinny :))) and imma keep retaking that class so I stay fit until i get a gym membership 

Tonight didn’t turn out as planned… but what good are making plans anyway, eh? 

29. Goals for the next 30 days.

I absolutely love seeing pictures of before and afters (or durings). It is refreshing to see REAL people accomplish their weight loss goals. Seeing other people succeed gives me strength and motivation. It also makes me genuinely happy. =)

Can’t wait to have my own before and after.

Diet pizza! Kind of weird, but it was good! Haha.

• 90 Calorie Flatout Wrap
• Broccoli
• SmartDog Vegetarian Hot Dog
• Banana Peppers
• Ragu Sauce
• Kraft fat free Mozzarella
• Reduced fat Feta

315 calories. 33g carbs. 5g fat. 40g protein.

I’m loosing weight like a champ 

So my goal of not eating fast food has failed. It’s hard to avoid it when you work and don’t feel like cooking…ever.

I’ve been slacking on working out too. I’ve been either busy and/or tired. I have a bad feeling I will not meet my weight loss goal for this month.

A pair of vegan Toms will be my reward when I weigh 199 lbs. 20 lbs to go :)

Pounds: 150 149 148 147 146 145 144 143 142 141 140 139 138 137 136 G1(135) 134 133 132 131 G2(130) 129 128 127 126 maybe someday (125)

Kilos: 68 67 66 65 64 63 62 61 60 59

WOW!!! I really can’t remember the last time I hit under 140 without it shooting back up to 140 in a day!!! This time it’s gong to keep coming off because it’s a lifestyle change and I’m determined to be the best me  I can be! :

(?)

A loss of 0.5lbs in a week! What the fuck? 
I’m eating like 900cals max now but I’m exercising double (i burn over 1000cals a day now) so…
Mabie my body isn’t used to it yet?

Should I weigh myself again on Sunday or something? :s
Am I plateau-ing? :s  

About the shakes, I just want to make something clear to those who complain about my desicions. I drink them for the nutrition and protein, YES, but mostly I just drink them because 1) I don’t have to think about what to eat when I get hungry and 2) I won’t binge on loads of stuff at the dinner table, I’ll have my shake and know just how many calories I had.

I have never had a good relationship to food, it’s all in or nothing. So in order to keep my eating and anxiety under control, I drink shakes. No worries. So this is not so much about the nutrition. That is all. xx

Just weighed myself.

128.6

5 days ago I was 126.6.

I haven’t eaten more than 1400 calories a day and worked out every. single. day.

What the FUCK! That must ALL be water because there’s no way I’ve eaten 7000 extra calories in 5 days! I know it won’t all be fat but seeing a gain and everything, it’s still pretty disheartening.

Grumpy.

Might as well do this before I go to sleep.

It’s down to the last two questions and boy, are they boring! I will have to start another challenge after this is over, one that touches on some hard-hitting subjects. I like answering good questions.

Anyway.

Well, I haven’t really thought about what I want to accomplish over the next 30 days. Actually, I do know one thing. I want to lose more weight and maintain a healthy diet. I guess that’s two things, but whatever. But yes, I am doing well. I have been at 170 for the past couple days. I feel like I’m stuck, but I’m trying not to get discouraged.

I just saw that, for my height of 5’2”, my ideal weight would be 125lbs. I’ll shoot for that (NOT within 30 days, that’s just absurd) and see if it makes me happy. To be honest, 169 would make me happy right about now. Just get me out of the 170s! I think I can lose three to four pounds in a week, so I’ll shoot for a loss of around 15 for the month. Sounds good!

Oh! Within the next 30 days, I will be going on vacation! So, another goal is to have a good, restful, fun vacation.

Since it is summer vacation and since I am a college graduate, I don’t feel obligated to make too many goals for the next month. I do have one more: to make some progress on my search for a REAL career.

1. Lose more weight.
2. Maintain healthy diet.
3. Have a great vacation.
4. Make progress in career search.

There you have it.

One more day of this challenge! 

Pictures from Discovery Park this morning. It was really...

I ate like complete and utter crap today. Just terrible. But I did not exceed my maintenance caloric amount. And I stayed active throughout the day, I played tennis early in the morning and went went swimming soon after for about 3 hours. Ehh, not so ad I guess.

Its taking all my willpower not to have anything. But the hour counts on my hand are stopping me. I wanna be able to add to them when I get home, not have to wash them off and start again. I can do this.

so basically i feel like this is working but anyone i’ve told keeps telling me that i’ll start holding onto fat/won’t truly be thin/will plateau…

can anyone who’s been on the ABC or any drastic diet with or without exercise reassure me that what i’m doing WILL work??

will love you for forever…i just need to know

Breakfast:

• Nutrimed Chocolate Almond Nutrition Bar (160 cals, 15g protein)
• Healthwise Lemon Razzy Protein Drink (70 cals, 15g protein)

Lunch:

• 1/2 cup frozen green beans
• 1/2 cup matchstick carrots
• 1 tsp olive oil

(sauteed the veggies in the olive oil)

PM Snack:

• Food Science Protein Pretzel Twists (120 cals, 15g protein)

Dinner:

• 3 oz grilled salmon
• 1/2 cup steamed veggies
• ~half of a dinner roll

food

exercise

voila

I’m going to New York City, Boston, and Philadelphia on the 11th of July, and I want to look kick-ass! Which one should I do to lose some fat and tone up a bit before then? I’m a bit torn!

Thanks!

Weighed myself while at Katherines house.. 115.6! I thought I’d be wayyy more. I’m on day 6 of this diet plan. I basically eat eggs, salad, and yogurt. But that’s okay, I’m maintaining a good weight. :)

Well, hello!

but everytime i see a post that says something along the lines of “skinny fixes everything” or “all i want is to be skinny”, etc., i just shake my head. 

your weight/appearance is just one facet of your life.

it is not everything. 

sure it does effect a lot of things, like your outlook on things and your confidence and whatnot, but there is so much more to life than your weight. 

it will not suddenly make all the boys want you.

you will not suddenly look amazing in everything. 

you will not be happy all the time. 

it is just one aspect of your life. 

sorry. i just had to say that. 

I picked up a few new followers this week.  Hi everyone!  Thanks for following me!  I always feel so giddy when someone new thinks the stuff I post is worth reading.

So… I guess all that’s left to say is, let’s go!  We’re all in this weight-loss thing together now!  I’ll help and support you any way I can :D

^ Me at my fattest. Notice the belly roll and the double chin.

926 calories burned walking 2.34 miles in 50:00 minutes.

It’s the summer.  Hot, sticky temperatures.  Staying outside without proper hydration can lead to dehydration.  No one wants to suffer the cramps from dehydration.  So, make sure to stay hydrated with frozen fruit smoothies.  Completely healthy, completely tasty, completely cold.

Smoothies are fun to play with.  You can mix pretty much anything until you find a taste you love.  One of my favorite combinations is a mixture of kiwi, watermelon, and lemon.  A sour flavor with a seedy texture, but I really like it.

Pour your smoothie mixture into small cups and freeze.  How you eat is up to you, haha.

Another idea is to add some veggies.  Just add enough so you know they’re in there, but not enough to destroy the fruit flavor.

I don’t get it. I ate a thing of whole foods fresh fruit and I went up to 109. I go to the thespian bbq, eat a veggie burger with mustard some watermelon and edamame AND WAIT IT GETS BETTER a chocolate chip cookie, two macaroons, and two brownie bites… then feel sick. So I walk for 45 minutes then come inside AND IT IS BETWEEN 107 AND 108. SCALE, WTF.

Also, I am bloated as fuck for a natural reason (hem hem) which is just lovely. I adore feeling like a whale. Although it does account for a lot of my angst and emotions this past week….

Excited to see my cousin tomorrow, then Jackson later that evening maybe catch a movie? (this is how I’m asking him haha). I miss you a lot, btw, on my walk I took an instagram of the distant shore on which you reside. 

I’m so pathetic I don’t even understand why I have followers. Please don’t leave me. :(

LAST WEEK OF HIGH SCHOOL I AM SO GIDDY!

So that i can wear the most ridiculous, outrageous, fucked up things, and nobody can say SHIT, cuz i still look damn good.

I’d wager that mindset is the most important part of this.

Well, hello! 

Caitlin: 18

Trying to be healthy.

INTAKE Wednesday June 15

veggie straws (160)

skittles (35)

1 slice tomato/basil/mozzarella pizza (400 to be safe)

total: 595 kcal

weight: 113.8

i honestly didn’t even want the pizza, but my friend practically begged me to go out to lunch, and i don’t want to start seeming suspicious.

escaped dinner with them by “going back to my own apartment to eat” (which is upstairs).  so the day was halfway successful. great.

So far so good.

It’s just the beginning, I know this, but already today has made me feel so in control and so accomplished. 

I ate breakfast which I usually skip which meant I was full up for ages! (An egg omelette with 2 eggs and a load of spinach) then I went to the park and had a good work out on the machines there, starting off tentatively because my body isn’t used to it I’m so fat my joints would hurt so bad if I went overboard, so I just did 20 mins, half of which was lifting over 85kg, the rest was cardio. I ache now, especially my back since I’m used to sitting down ALL day. But I burned 120cals.

Then for lunch I had a Sports recovery Shake with whey protein since I want to build muscle as well as lose weight, I don’t want to be all jiggly from losing too fast! And one mixed seed whole meal roll, buttered with olive spread with lean chicken breast in wholemeal mustard dressing. I feel SO full and I usually want to eat more and more. It’s so nice to eat so little and feel so full. I need to work harder on my stomach so I can’t eat huge portions if it aches from working out~ Just downed a bottle of evian water as well.

So…. today I learned that pasta, even whole wheat pasta,...

So…. today I learned that pasta, even whole wheat pasta, is loaded with calories. Anyway, I had physical therapy today so I was doing a lot of light exercise like the stationary bike, squats with bouncy balls, resistance band leg lifts, stair steps, etc. so I gave myself and extra ~100 calories for that.

Afterwards, I hung out around the house and then went to the mall and got vegetable lo mein and bourbon chicken at the food-court for dinner! My friend helped me eat it because I was like “the more of it you eat, the less of it I eat.” It is kinda bad for you but it tastes so good!! As long as I come in under my calorie count, I am happy!

Just taking it one day at a time!

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Who says French toast can’t be healthy? Made with...

Who says French toast can’t be healthy? Made with weightwatchers wheat bread, egg whites, low fat milk and cinnamon. Topped with lite syrup, a dusting of confectioners sugar, and fresh blueberries! Yummmm.