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binge binge binge

Lunch/Breakfast: Egg, toast and raspberries

Dinner: Pasta with marinara sauce and strawberries

Snack: Popcorn, grapes

Calorie Intake: 694

Calorie Output: 2365

Net Calories: -1554

I never notice on days that I’ve eaten less until I calculate my calories, it feels like I’m eating the same amount.



Going running at 6am :)

I’ve realized how important running is. My friend from work has been running everyday and eating what she wants, but choosing healthier foods and has been looking and feeling better than ever. (that’s not her though^ haha)

She has a healthy glow to her, her body is toning up in a beautiful healthy curvy way and she truly looks amazing.

Stay strong and push yourself to get off the sofa or out of bed and go running. You girls are all so beautiful and I want you to feel it too :)



another face change proof :) 

me -66lbs, in less than a year :)

it is worth it so yeah :)

can’t wait to weigh myself tomorrow morning. hope its not a let down. so close to hitting 66kg - i was 67.2 this morning, and i ate really well and killed myself at body pump today. increased my weights for squats and triceps like i mentioned, and it was absolutely fine! i’ve quadrupled the weight i use on the squat track since i started doing pump properly only a couple of weeks ago! i’m getting stronger. never been able to see/feel it like this before.

have moroccan oil all through my hair as a treatment and it smells DELICIOUS.





another face change proof :) 

me -66lbs, in less than a year :)

it is worth it so yeah :)

breakfast: oatmeal with banana, egg beaters and almond butter(200)
lunch(on the go): wrap with 1 tbsp cream cheese and tomato(150), cheese stick(70), yogurt(80)
snack: almonds(100), apple(80)
dinner: clam chowder(200), strawberries(50)
snack: sugar free hot coco(25)
TOTAL: 1055+error

To anybody out there on this weight loss journey I just want to reach out. I feel so alone, isolated, depressed, & distraught. I find myself crying almost every night now thinking all those years I messed up my journey. I’m now at the point where I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve restarted this journey over the last 5 years and have only managed to get bigger. I recently saw the guy I like at my cpr renewal course & when I got home I couldn’t help but break down and cry about how hopeless my chances are. He only knows a minute portion of just how much I adore him yet all my efforts so far have been unsuccessful. I feel as if every part of me is in pieces. Academically, emotionally, physically, socially….and not to talk of a nonexistent love life which has lasted over a year now. I deserve to be happy and confident. I need to prove that I can conquer my fears. I need this. I need him.

I am stronger than this shit. I will lose weight.

Pull yourself together girl, not again. 

Yes, this weekend was shocking in terms of food. But starting right now I’m going to be back onto eating healthy and hitting the gym Monday to Friday. I was doing well, in a messed up kind of way, I don’t want to keep hovering around this weight, I still have so far to go.

howthemightyfall replied to your post: i still have 11 lbs to lose. 2 down so far from my original 13 lbs to lose lol. you can d

Bad day, again.

Went to Oxford to say goodbye to friends as I’m leaving the country on Saturday. They insisted we go to a cafe and I tried to order the healthiest thing - a Tuscany panini (grilled veggies and mozzarella) with salad. Tried to take off some of the cheese but got a weird look from a friend, who was busy eating a chocolate sundae! Then after that they got some Greek treats and insisted I try some of this particular baclava. So I didn’t even calorie count today. Ugh.

My shoulders are sore. My left calve sort of hurts when I walk. But I’m losing weight.

My love handles have gone down, my stomach (upper and lower abs) are slowly going down (I can’t say that I’ve been eating 100 percent health, because then I’d be lying), and I’m getting excited. I honestly cannot wait for Level 2.

I think I might actually meet my goal weight by Christmas guys, and I wanted to reach it by my birthdays (which is in February). I. Cannot. Wait.

Wish me luck :) I love you all!

Okay, so technically it’s not the 22nd anymore since it’s after midnight, but oh well! Today marked the first day of my diet. I got the myfitnesspal app for my iphone and it’s got to be the best thing ever. It’s such an easy and accurate way to keep track of calorie intake and exercise, so I love it. I also got an ab workout app which is great as well and tomorrow I’ll be adding some more health/exercise related apps to my phone to keep things interesting. 

In order to lose 2 lbs a week, my daily calorie intake is supposed to be 1200 but I went out for dinner with a friend and my total for today ended up being 2025 calories. The good thing is that I burned 600 calories from my workout, so I only ended up being 225 calories over. 

I’m actually really excited about this because for the first time ever, I actually feel like I can do this and I will do this. I’m going to be healthy, I’m going to happy, and I’m going to be proud when all this is done. This is just the beginning, but I can’t wait to see the end results. 

Well it’s already 1:29 am, so I’m going to quickly create an exercise routine page for this blog, spend a little bit of time on my other blog, and hopefully get to sleep within the next hour. Good night, xo. 

I know i have a bunch of goals on my goal page, but this is just a random simple one.

First day of summer was the 21st of June, so I would like to lose 15 lbs by the first day of fall (Sept. 23rd)

I think it’s healthy and realistic and I would def be feeling great at that weight by the end of the summer. It isn’t my ultimate goal, but it’s a lot closer and since I know I am getting more confident every day that passes, I might be damn close to cocky at that point :)

Warning: Although this is still my goal and I will be working towards it, I am taking a very intense summer course in Human Anatomy and it’s pretty much going to be taking over my life, so i want to apologize beforehand of my infrequent visits or posts on Tumblr. However, I am sure that my digits will slip and my mouse will end up checking tumblr every few hours. Ugh, the obsession!

Waist is down 3 inches from when I started. Hips are down 4. Thigh is down at least 2. Makes Becca a happy bunny :) 

Other Approaches To Lose Weight Aside From Starving Yourself:

If you are one of those individuals who’ve tried out hundreds of other weight loss plans and programs without having success you might be looking for yet another thing that can work. One of these innovative alternatives is referred to as negative calorie dishes. If a food possesses ten calories, and yes it normally requires one’s body fifteen calories to process, this is considered a negative calorie food. If you’ve ever been curious about is liposuction painful? then after reading this short article probably you could agree with me that while liposuction cost isn’t 100% risk-free, at the very least…

This is people’s primary problem with dieting successfully. Dont expect to change yourself over night. Your fat burning metabolism will drop as soon as you start dieting if you try to change too suddenly and you’ll become demotivated from the get-go.

That’s awesome! Good job! I think my goal is a healthy and strong 135, so I have about 13-10 (depending on the day) pounds to loose. 

I’d LOVE to have done it before my 19th - but that is incredibly unlikely! I guess we will see…  

lost another pound!

All right, I’m going to try this daily intake thing. I used to calorie count, but that was when I was sticking to around 1200 calories a day, with exercise, and I got nowhere. So I’m going to count calories without a limit, but obviously try and eat as few as possible. Ugh, even the word ‘calories’ is starting to sound likeGluttonous Yellow FAT…



Breakfast:

Oats and soya milk - 200

Green tea & 500ml water

/

20 crunches



Lunch:

Wholemeal wrap with cream cheese, tomato & lettuce - 250

Half a yoghurt & 1 clementine - 80

Green tea & 1L water

/

20 minutes fast cycling - 200

20 squats



Dinner:

Plain vegetable curry - 100

1/4 packet of Tilda pilau rice - 65

Green tea & 500ml water

/

20 squats

20 crunches

20 jumping jacks

Breakfast:

Oats and soya milk - 200

Coffee (dammit!) - 50

500ml water

/

20 crunches

20 squats




This is what Girls Generation (famous Korean girl band) eats while on a diet.

Crazy stuff, and I’m pretty sure they’re not getting enough nutrients… But their willpower is definitely motivating.

The Couch-to-5K Running Plan:

This is a good method to jogging/walking. Start off slow, and work your way to the top!!


This is from 2009


this fall 2010


2008


2010 Oct.


nov. 2010


grad party 2009


2008


Dec 2008

I know some of these pictures are edited horribly but looking at these made me even more motivated. As much as it hurts to look at recent pictures I needed to. I need a visual reminder of who I use to be. I need to see that I could get healthy again. I wish I had pictures from my lightest weight but I don’t have a scanner. Well any ways her are some of my favorite pictures of me and some of my least favorite.


summer before college


10th grade


senior year I just like my arm


me now ( oct. 2010)

These aren’t the best pictures but I think the show how drastically my weight changed.

And im going out tonight, there will be rum, copious amounts of it, and will probably lead to some kind of fat and carb based snack at the end of the night.

CANT WAIT!

I then have a fathers day bbq thing on sunday, so ive pretty much written this week off. Am not using this as an excuse to binge, but i dont expect any weight loss at all this week. Ive still had a very healthy breakfast and have salad for lunch. But, you know. weight doesnt come off when rum is involved does it??!?!?!?

Anyway - we have just got these work t shirts because we are running an event on saturday. My boss couldnt believe i was a size 14, which i am. because that was the size she was wearing. I tried it on, and it looked fine, but she insisted i took a 16 which is baggy as hell. Annoying.I suspect that has more to do with the fact that she thinks shes thinner than me, and actually she isnt. Conclusion: Women are bitches.

Im still really confused about mr saturday night as well. Hes talking to me via facebook, lots of flirty conversations, but if i text him, i get no reply, WTF is that all about? I do not understand men at all. I was hoping to see him this weekend, but noting has been said ( despite when i said, lets just leave it, he said no and he did want to see me and stop being silly…) So - ive just made other plans instead, because im not going to sit in waiting for him.

I’m done with my little mope over my ex (why, I DO NOT know) and my few fat days are nearing their end.

The decision I have come to is…to get back on plan and stay there…

…from tomorrow of course, tonight is my first night off in ages so I’m going to enjoy it!

:D

They’re actually my step sister’s friends which means that she’ll be busy/they won’t care so I can have a mini period of NO EATING!!! :DD AT ALL!!! A mini fast. Then I’ll get back and try to trick mum again… :S 

but this time I’m happy about it because I’m finally making progress again instead of bouncing from 199 to 198

197 baby!

Photo

Sorry I didn’t post last night. It was mostly because it was a bad day and I could’ve cared less about my calorie counting. I even ate a slice of Walmart Triple Chocolaty Cake! *Le Gasp!* But Yeah. I just lost confidence in myself and I’m struggling with not seeing the results fast enough. People in DCI could feel me on this one cause on Tour you’re working 12 hrs a day and eating an all carb diet. I lost 30 pounds in 2 months! And some lil app on my ipod (my fitness pal) is telling me I’ll lose 10 pounds in 6 wks?!? WTF.

But Today I did SO MUCH BETTER! :D Salad for lunch and Subway for dinner. I will admit I had mc donalds for breakfast but it was perfectly within my calorie range :D PLUS right after this post I’m taking my wonderful boyfriend and walking/ power walking (no running!) at the park. :D 

I know I only have two followers but I like writing and having something to rant at I guess lol. Night! Think Thin!

I need to make one.. and stick to it. 



So now that I am at week 5 of the Couch to 10K program…holy hell do I feel the difference. 70 minutes of running?! brb I’m about to figure out the exact mileage of my quest…

Okay, and with 2 minutes of walking/2.5 minutes of running for a total of 70 minutes, I “ventured” a little over 5 miles. I don’t know if that’s good or what, but woo yeah 642 calories.

Anyone remember when I looked like this?

And then decided to look like this?

and

I really need a better ‘after’ shot… PHOTOSHOOT!

my favorite 100 calorie snack.

which brings my total net calories to -879

Will you race me? Will you? Please? Come on, race me?

Tonight, I was lucky enough to hang out with my friends 6 and 8 year old nieces. We took them to a park with a big nature trail and walked all around. Well actually we “raced” most of the time. Despite most of my attempts to get out of said racing, I found myself running along the trails and having fun instead of panting and thinking about how much I despise running most of the time. 

We didn’t go very far, just 2.4 miles, but I did spend the vast majority of it running.  I also got to educate, my second favorite thing, pointing out different trees, animals and bugs. Who doesn’t love that? 

Don’t have your own, borrow a friends, you’ll have a blast, I’m telling you. Their parents won’t mind when you return them completely exhausted either. 

Dedicated to all the weight plateauing sufferers

Gah! I get so discouraged when my WIW hasn’t budged, but I’ve come to realise that the numbers on the scale isn’t necessarily the be all end all. I just wanted to tell you to celebrate all your non scale victories. 

My NSV thus far:

  • Oh hello collarbone nice to see you again
  • I can breathe in jeans
  • I can squat 10kgs in body pump now
  • My legs are more toned 
  • Got energy? Yes I do.

What NSVs have you achieved?

Actually so happy plans got cancelled for tomorrow! It means I don’t have to go out for supper tomorrow with friends! I can make up for today, which will take a lot. Exercised quite a bit today, but had tons of gross food for lunch with the friend. Yayay I get to miss the meal!

Hi, i’m new here, & this is my first post. This is mostly a weight loss blog…with some celebrities thrown in haha. I’d love to find some other people trying to be healthy & lose weight so we can motivate each other!

Going to work out now ?



Good news for matcha lovers!

I’m going all the way - instead of just having smaller portions I’m going to cut out more foods - lowering my carbs, no more diet coke, no more junk food, no more pastas and less bread and potatoes. I’m not going to eat as much cereal or granola bars - replacing with eggs and fruit. instead of diet coke, I’ll have green and oolong tea. no more nibbling off of junk food. I think this will make a big difference. more water - once I start seeing better results I’ll be happier. I’m going to continue my workout routines- their high intensity cardio - perfect for weightloss so I don’t think thats where I’m going wrong.



If oven-baked fries count, then months ago, but otherwise I think it’s been years…?

WELL, ANYTHING I WANT! BASICALLY, I’M COUNTING CALORIES, WHICH MEANS: AS LONG AS I DON’T GO OVER MY NUMBER, I CAN EAT ANYTHING I WANT. THE KEY TO THIS KIND OF DIET IS TO CHOOSE CAREFULLY.

SAY YOUR NUMBER IS 1500 CALORIES A DAY (THAT’S MY NUMBER FOR THIS WEEK). IF YOU EAT 500 CALORIES FOR BREAKFAST, YOU’VE USED 1/3 OF YOUR CALORIES FOR THAT DAY AND LIMITS WHAT YOU CAN EAT THROUGHOUT THE REST OF YOUR DAY. CHOOSING CAREFULLY AND CHOOSING FILLING FOODS THAT HAVE A LOW CALORIE COUNT ARE IMPORTANT.

MY FAVORITE NEW MEAL ARE CHEESY TORTILLAS. I USED WHOLE WHEAT TORTILLAS (80 CALORIES PER TORTILLAS. YOU CAN MAKE TWO GOOD SIZED CHEESY TORTILLAS WITH ONE TORTILLA.) AND REDUCED FAT KRAFT CHEESE (60 CALORIES PER 1/4 CUP. I USE 1/4 PER HALF TORTILLA.) SO TOTAL THAT IS ONLY 200 CALORIES, I ALSO DRINK A 20 OUNCE GLASS OF WATER WITH MY MEAL AND I’M COMFORTABLY FULL AND DON’T NEED TO EAT FOR ANOTHER 4 TO 5 HOURS! YUM!

M&S fruit salad - 65 cals

Senga strawberry yoghurt (omg it was heaven, there were whole effin strawberries in that yummy goodness) - 145 cals

Two mini falafel - 80 cals

Pink lady apple - 80 cals

Which means I have 630 cals left for dinner yay! I can have dressing on my salad ;) It’s good I’ve kept it low today because the weather is shit and the gym is closed so there’ll be no workout for me today. (Maybe some toning)

But the sheer amount of sweat I sweated last night (lush image ahaha) must have equated to some serious calorie burnage, right?

Love you xoxo

Yesterday was a “I feel fat” day. It all started off with me having pancakes for breakfast…

Then my dad had toast and it smelled great so I made myself two pieces…

Then my mom made blueberry muffins so I had to have one…

THEN I met my friend Ashley, who I hadn’t seen in months, at Panera Bread to catch up, and I had a free smoothie on my rewards card so I sipped on that…

…only to come back home and have a turkey sandwich with my parents.

ALL BEFORE TWO O’CLOCK.

So to make up for my humongous intake of unnecessary calories, I went to the gym. I went with my friend Sophia and had a great time.

The workout was good but probably barely put a dent in the calories I consumed…

After that I ran upstairs and quickly got ready for my boyfriend’s niece’s dance recital (so precious!). All of his family was there and his aunt bought me 16 cakettes from a local bakery (think cake rolled with frosting and fillings dipped in chocolate!). So of course I had a couple because I never ate dinner.

I returned home around 10 o’clock to sit and watch Tangled with my mom and enjoyed a chicken patty sandwich. I had massive heart burn all night.

And I wonder why I am not skinny…

I’ve had to take a month off from running due to some nasty shin splints. I’ve kept working out—just lower impact and adding yoga—but my eating has been a little carefree. Blame it on summertime or laziness or stress or whatever. As a result I have a gained a nice solid pound for every week I haven’t been running. I’ve come to realize what I already knew but sometimes forget—in order to feel fit and healthy, I have to be ON IT. I have to think about everything that I eat, whether it is a positive or a negative influence my body and well-being. Honestly it can be exhausting, but it’s the way I am built. It’s in my genetic and psychological make-up. So I’m vowing now to get it together. To stay on track. To do what I need to do for myself, no matter what those around me are eating and drinking. And to allow myself a special treat when it’s really worth it. 

Wish me luck!  

I just want to apologize for not posting in a long time. I’m going through exam period but I’ll be done in a matter of 8 days! I promise to start posting regularly again once that’s over.

Happy weight loss folks! Hope all is well. I’ll answer all my messages when I get back.

Sorry, blog! Okay, here’s what happened:

          I was doing really well for about a week (right after I got home from school). After that, I basically just got lazy. The weather was terrible for two weeeks, and all I wanted to do was stay inside and watch movies. Urgh.

          The good news is, that’s all over now! I turned 19 on Monday and realized that I wasn’t keeping the promise I made when I got to college: to work hard at being a better version of myself every year that I’m alive. So I gave myself a huge kick in the butt and I’m not looking back! I’ve been unsatisfied with my physical condition for too long to put it off ever again. I started barefoot running on Tuesday (June 2nd) and I’m totally in love. Finding a means of exercise that you really want to do every day is the key, I think.

          I’ve also been eating VERY well. I can’t believe it took me so long to figure out how easy it is. My mom jumped on the vegan wagon for the summer in honor of my birthday (yay!) so she’s been letting me do all of the grocery shopping. Replacing chips with hummus and crackers and high-sugar juices with green tea is really all it takes. I feel great and I am so proud of myself. :)

          When I got lazy, my weight went back up to 147. In five days, I went from 146.5 to 141.5! I ALWAYS get to 141 and then think my work is done because I’m seeing results in my face and stomach. NOT. THIS. TIME. I haven’t been in the 130s in THREE YEARS, and I intend to hit 139.5 by next week. I might cry when I see that number. It will mean that I’m finally taking a stand and doing what I’ve always wanted to do for myself. I can’t wait. :)

The next time you’re in line at Starbucks you may want to think about ordering tea instead of your usual coffee. With only 1/3 the amount of caffeine it may not be enough to perk up the avid coffee drinker but tea offers numerous health benefits that will keep you going in the long run.

Tea has been popular for thousands of years all over the world. It is the second most consumed beverage behind water. Teas such as black, green, white, and oolong are made from the leaves of the evergreen tree camellia sinensis, which contains polyphenol antioxidants.

Antioxidants are important in a person’s diet, because they rid the body of molecules called free radicals, which are a byproduct of cellular activity, pollution, and the natural aging process.

Free radicals are destructive within the body, because they harm DNA molecules and pave the way for illness and disease. High amounts of antioxidants can be found in fruits and vegetables and other plant based foods such as the dried leaves used to make brewed tea. 

One of the most studied teas for its amazing health benefits is green tea. Green tea is rich in catechin polyphenols, such as epigallocatechin gallate (EGCG). EGCG is an antioxidant with cancer fighting powers.

Studies have shown it can aid in protection against various forms of cancer including esophageal, gastric, skin, ovarian, lung, and colon cancer. Studies have also shown that drinking 2-3 cups per day can lower blood pressure, cholesterol, and decrease the risk of heart attack.

Not only does green tea contain immune boosting antioxidants, but it can also protect your teeth. Tea has bacteria killing properties to fight plaque, gum disease, and bad breath. Tea contains fluoride, which can protect against cavities.

Green tea has gotten a couple of knocks for it’s fluoride content, despite the positive attributes, since too much fluoride can be bad for you. It is recommended that a person receive no more than 10/mg of fluoride per day. Loose leaf green tea only contains about 0.3 mg of fluoride, so unless you’re drinking about 30 cups per day, don’t worry.

Studies suggest that the polyphenols in green tea can help reduce and prevent rheumatoid arthritis. One study found that regular tea drinkers reported to have stronger bones and were less likely to develop arthritis. Those who drank tea regularly for 10 years or more had higher bone mineral density in their spines than non-tea drinkers.

Green tea is currently gaining more popularity due to studies that suggest it aids in weight loss. The combination of EGCG and caffeine in green tea work together to stimulate thermogenesis, heat production in the body. It increases fat oxidation and increases energy expenditure.

Although EGCG is capable of giving metabolism a boost, drinking a cup or two of green tea is not a weight loss remedy. A Japanese study shows that 5 cups of green tea per day only burns about 70 calories through thermogenesis. Drink your tea for all the health benefits, but keep in mind that you must always exercise and eat a well balanced diet for weight management.

There are tons of teas to choose from, but high quality loose leaf teas are the best. Brew your tea for 3-5 minutes to bring out the antioxidants. Add honey, milk, lemon or sugar to sweeten. Relax, sip, and enjoy. It’s not milk, but this beverage does a body good.

I've had enough...

A Small Step (copied from my old blog May 31st; original post date). 06/06/2011


   A Small Step
I think I’m in this…we shall see though. Its been about 3 or 4 days, but I’ve been waking up early to try and stay committed to losing weight this year. I weighed in this morning officially as my first at 245 pounds at 5’2”. I know that is not healthy at all and in the midst of everything that’s been going on in my life, I feel like this will be the year I will commit to it. No matter how hard it gets. I feel like waking up early in the morning is going to be best for me. Researches say that those who do work out in the morning are more committed to their routines anyways.

Back to the important stuff. 245 pounds! That is morbidly obese for someone like me, because i’m only 5 foot, 2 inches. I should be in the 115-125 range. Although, that would be lovely, I’m more looking forward to one day getting down to a size 4,6, or 8. Currently I can wear a shit 18/20 pants, and 16/18 shirt. I’m not really sure on my body’s shape, but I’m hoping when I lose weight I’ll be an hourglass…but isn’t that every woman’s dream shape.

My family has struggled with weight, its come down the line. Both of my aunt’s and my grandmother. One aunt was so big when she was my age she took drastic measures to lose the weight, and although she has never gotten big again, sometimes I think her extreme measures have affected her adult life and the way she goes about making sure she doesn’t gain all the weight back again.

I feel like I am a role model to my cousins, especially my young, pre-teen cousin L. She is extremely heavy for her height and my aunt told me that the doctor said L cound’t do volleyball because of her asthma, which is heavily influenced by her weight. She is almost as tall as me, and I fear her weight is quite hefty for a girl her age and height. My thoughts are consumed and I feel responsible for L’s weight. I’m her older cousin and should be a role model in almost every aspect. I will conquer this.

I’m tired of my weight holding me back from being the open, bubbly person I feel I could be. Instead I hide behind my weight in fear, because I do not want to be judged, ridiculed or stared at. I just want to live life to the fullest and this FAT is holding me back. I’ve been walking on and off for a week or so. I’m trying to walk every morning for 30 minutes at the least, with random jogs within that 30 minutes. I figure I am taking the c25K method, but tweaking it a little. I want to do this the right way so my body can adjust and become accustom to it, so that when I do reach my goal, it will be harder to put the weight back on, which hopefully will never be a problem.Pon and Zi

It just amazes me though, that in high school, my freshman year in gym class we had to run a mile like every week…well of course I would walk/run it, walking predominantly. I was around 230 at that time, but managed to get down to 216. About 15 pounds lost by only doing a mile a week. What is it I am doing wrong now? Oh well, I can only give it my best. I would love to go walking/running at night but its dark and I have no protection but my brother, Brandon and John..which Brandon and John will be leaving soon : / I will miss them. All this testosterone in the house,  I felt protected. HAHA…

Anyways, this is just my random entry to get all these thoughts out of my head.

Love & God Bless. 



My latest weigh-in. 8stone10

Okay! So I always get asks on here, formspring and on facebook asking “What do I do to lose weight?” and not wanting to turn this into a weight loss blog I spent the last 10 minutes writing shit down here ! It’s not that I don’t like talking about it, I just hate repeating myself to everyone on here.

Age: 23

Height: 5’6”

Highest Weight: 215

Starting Weight: 208 (Mid-January)

Current Weight: 180 (as of 5/11/11)

Goal Weight: 150… and then we’ll work from there

Arms: 12”

Calves: 16.5”

Thighs: 23.5”

Waist: 41”

Stomach: 40”

Breasts: 40” 

 Good morning everyone :)

Going downtown to get my eyes checked out; I don’t think I’ve been up this early since the last day of school. It’s an oddly good feeling.

I went really high over my desired intake yesterday. Really high. I planning to fast today, tomorrow and Wednesday.



i mean obviously i’m not into being totally bone-skinny, because my UGW is 150, which is just in the healthy range, but i’m really annoyed by the fat acceptance movement. i was obese and only heading toward more obesity because i was surrounded by people who told me “You’re fat, you’re always going to be fat, its okay.” and now i’m healthier, happier, and on the road to living a longer, more fulfilling life. i wish someone would have told me earlier how easy it would be to adopt a healthier lifestyle and to actually love myself for once.

my mom, who is obese, always told me its no use hating myself for what i am and for what i’ll always be, which is “chubby.”

now i’m working really really really hard to lose weight and be happier for my mom. i want her to see and to be a great example for her to perhaps change her outlook and her lifestyle. she’s already noticing changes in me and complimenting me about it. 



I wanna get back to this size. I want to feel pretty again.

DONE!

6 more days left! I was NOT feeling it today at all. I skipped yesterday so it had to be done. But ugh, sometimes I just do NOT want to exercise. I would like to hit an hour total though but to be honest, I have my meals planned out for the day already and am planning on doing some walking later (hopefully to the pool.. if not just around the apartment complex). I think I just want to relax and do homework all day. Dreading work tomorrow but whatelseisnew?

No eating out this week! I don’t have plans with any friends to grab lunch or dinner… there is always that possibility. If it does happen, I’ll just work out hard and make sure I have enough calories. But aside from that, I am sticking to the kitchen.

I really hope to hit my 30lb goal this Friday… I want to go buy my feather extensions! Haha I get paid Wednesday so I really will have no excuses not to… I need to lose 2lbs this week..Watch I bet I’ll hit 29.5lbs lost.. that would be my luck! It’s taking so long to get to the 170s..

Okay, I’m starving. Time for breakfast and homework!

I’m also going to do the 30 day challenge now that I have measurements because I can see how they are over 30 days!

i trust people,

these people who i thought were my friends yeah,

they tried to split me and my boyfriend up yeah?

not only that but they’ve been going around saying that i’m below average in looks, and that people should be ashamed to be seen with me!

Never again am i going to trust them.

I know that i’m fat

I know that i’m not that pretty

I know there’s alot i could change.

why do they think i’m doing all this?

Thanks a bunch for wrecking my confidence.

16/06/11

All right, I’m going to try this daily intake thing. I used to calorie count, but that was when I was sticking to around 1200 calories a day, with exercise, and I got nowhere. So I’m going to count calories without a limit, but obviously try and eat as few as possible. Ugh, even the word ‘calories’ is starting to sound likeGluttonous Yellow FAT…



Morning:

Oats and soya milk - 200

Green tea

500ml of water


20 crunches



I’ll fill in the rest later. But I do have a question about bran flakes: I used to eat this every morning thinking the fibre is good for me, but I always ended up feeling hungry about an hour after having a bowl. Why is this?

INTAKE Wednesday June 15

veggie straws (160)

skittles (35)

1 slice tomato/basil/mozzarella pizza (400 to be safe)

total: 595 kcal

weight: 113.8

i honestly didn’t even want the pizza, but my friend practically begged me to go out to lunch, and i don’t want to start seeming suspicious.

escaped dinner with them by “going back to my own apartment to eat” (which is upstairs).  so the day was halfway successful. great.

Mall day.

I’m about to go to the mall with my mom, which in and of itself is going to be tough. Over the years, I’ve eaten the same meal at the mall for lunch: vegetable fried rice and a Diet Coke. 

Not anymore. I’m going to try and gather the strength to eat at the Salad Works station in the food court today. I went on their website and looked over the calorie count for some of the salads and the dressings and I think I found a good combination for me:

A bently salad, which includes:

  • baked ham
  • roasted turkey
  • Swiss cheese
  • Romaine lettuce
  • chopped eggs
  • tomatoes

Minus the turkey, I think this is my top choice because I love all the ingredients and it’s about 244 calories per salad. 

The website also has the nutritional information for the salad dressings, which is even more helpful because now I know exactly what I’m eating. I think I’ll go for the fat free honey mustard, which is only 45 calories per ounce. (As opposed to my usual French dressing, which is 130 calories.)

I told myself I wouldn’t count calories, but my dad is making me take part in this website called Lose It where you insert your calorie intake and the amount of exercise you do each day. You also put in your usual stats, plus your weight loss goal, and it calculates how much you should be eating each day to lose the weight you want (in a healthy way). It’s actually been really helpful so far.

Anyway, I’m off to the mall now. Wish me luck!

 So my mom came home from the grocery store today and got me some cake mix. I love baking, she...

 So my mom came home from the grocery store today and got me some cake mix. I love baking, she always gets me cake mix. So it’s in the oven now, getting cooked up(yummy, lovely chocolate cupcakes :)

And my cousins are over, and my sister. So I’m going to bake for them and watch them it eat(because, you know, I already ate). And I’m going to feel fucking lovely when I don’t eat one, because I don’t need them :)